Thursday, May 19, 2011 Y
SO disappointed with my dear dear.. told him so many times lik talking to the wall.. he nv listen.. stubborn.. make mi angry oly.. make mi wait for him to reply even though he doe i hates it.. say he slping nap also cn say rite.. go out fren with also nv reply.. at home also reply late.. at work also nv reply.. since he cnt be bothered, from now on, i also cannot be bothered le.. tired just repeating myself.. so I just sms him only when i tink i am free.. not going to tell mi when i nap also.. just let him wait for his sms..
last nite found out tat he isnt honest with mi also.. though to some ppl its a small matter but i hate liars.. no matter big or small.. he pretend he is slping while he is watching show.. hu doe how long he has been doing tat pretense.. his excuse was i knew u will be angry so wan slp late tat time just sms early first.. wow.. wat gd excuse.. as long as he tink i will get angry den he got the reason to lie? Den next time i also do the same lol.. i go out with fren or wat late slp late den i just lie lol.. knew he will be angry ma.. den next time go out with gal or fren late go home also will lie and say reach home le lol.. so say go out with oly guy fren.. sometimes he go out with fren already didnt say truth le.. at first say go out with guy den in the end also got gal.. say oly when i found out and ask.. den say is last min decision.. if i nv find out den don nid say lol.. off also nv say off when de.. until i found out ask den say.. next time i den don believe wat he say..
last week someting happen not just embarassment, plus devastating and frustration.. I really really really wan to send him to hell.. stab him straight in his heart and nv c him again.. jail is not enough for ppl hu are pervert.. someting that i feel lik having a anmesia and nv wan to rmb no matter wat it takes.. someting i will nv forget.. and i hope tat he die a horrible death.. best got his eyes dug out.. u cn nv imagine so it will feels.. his eyes just staring at u while u looking at him and he doesnt feels apologetic at all.. don c him take any action fast enough but oly do it slowly.. saying he didnt do on purpose.. ya rite.. hu will believe.. physotic pervert.. I nv nv nv wan to c him in my next next next and next life.. though not gd to post here as if someone c it he may feel very sad but i cnt be bothered.. ppl lik him should get torture terribly in hell.. and he can still lie through his teeth and say someting tat even dumb ppl doe it isnt true.. I really cnt explain my frustration.. it makes my blood boil and agitated even to just type it..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 8:43 PM
Wednesday, February 23, 2011 Y
Up til now, I don tink my hamster died a peaceful death.. They die by illness, injuries and accident.. And all I could do is to stand there and watch them suffer.. Like my fav one, mommy ham ham with her infected eye.. lost her sight for a while.. suffering even after a surgery.. and nth tat i could do to save her.. Sometimes I wonder if we keep her better in better bedding and better condition she wont have it.. Everytime it just come to someting call money.. which means mi frustrated.. If cannot keep a pet in good condition then don keep one.. Father died because of a fight and he too suffered from his injured leg.. I wonder it is fracture or what.. But he is strong.. and still he die suffering with nth I can help to save.. Then there is female kid escape from the cage.. and accidents here and there choke to dealth by the house opening, squash and babies born not even lived a day..
however, one die last sunday.. even gender is unsure but i guess its male.. and died with mi around.. and its my fault.. He was fighting with another one or bully and beaten.. his squeak and shout but I took no notice and pay no attention til it was too late.. If i went to take a glance, just one glance, he wont be suffering till death and wont even die.. I will be able to save him.. But I didnt and it too late and I wasnt be able to help him after tat.. oly able to watch him suffer.. his face covered with red blood and blood and cuts on his back.. and his limping and not being able to move much.. couching himself together.. But he is still breathing.. I tot he may be able to survive cause they recover fast.. but I tink the injuries are too serious for him and I don even doe wat to do for his bleeding wounds.. I cant help at all to make him better.. and I wasnt even given the chance to nurse him back to health although not sure how, I was planning to stand by his side and protect him.. but he died before tat..
So now I just hope tat one of them get her eyes recover totally.. and the rest died peacefully and without accident or illness.. All those who died from accidents and illnesss and none tat I can save.. Tis will be in memory of them every single one.. never forgotten..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 2:27 AM
Friday, February 18, 2011 Y
relationship really can make u tired.. physically and mentally.. Make u doesnt wan to care more abt anything.. even tired to continue a quarrel or argument.. maybe its the work of being upset.. make mi feel hate.. making my heart not stable.. making mi don doe to hope or not to hope.. make mi wonder over and over again abt it.. make mi wonder how long cn it last.. make mi wonder how long it can stay on.. having to repeat mistakes over and over.. having to getting hurt again and again.. make mi tink wat is the point..
however, the most irritating part is what to do? one side gd one side bad.. gd can be very gd while bad can be untolerable.. seriously, wat can be done? staying on and tolerating hoping that it will soon be over and past and gd days will cme cause we all know fresh in the mind tat the same ting will still repeats.. being awake and keep it shut.. being awake will tell u tis time is gone but when will the next cme? and whether I could still continue when it comes? how long u wan to tolerate.. in future there is still going to be prob much worse than this.. must well give up.. while keeping it shut will say since its so long liao just continue.. u doe tat tis is wat u wanted.. just a little tolerance will do.. tis kind of ting confirm will matter de wat.. without it relationship wont get stronger..
but still y cant it stop repeating? does it really make it stronger.. some how to me i don c it stronger.. maybe it does but i just don c it.. i just c that it makes ppl feel sick, feel irritated and feel much worse hurt than previous when it comes.. every single time it come it adds on and heavier to carry and continue.. there is one way to stop and i hope i don cme to tat way because i don wan to.. so pls.. pls stop pushing.. its already very close.. just a bit more and i feel tat i'm falling apart or maybe i'm already start to fall apart.. so pls.. i'm already pushing it backward to retain.. but y keep pushing forward.. stop pushing forward..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 3:12 AM
Monday, December 27, 2010 Y
today is my birthday.. yay.. celebrate with my best best best fren dor.. went to bugis to buy my pants and shop a few other things.. Then go plaza sing to buy skirt and dress.. lucky for mi before tat i didnt buy the dress now gt 50 percent off.. wow!!! after tat actually still wan go pasir ris catch guppy de.. ut dor say she very tired wan to go find her bf.. so too bad i cme back home eat my mum cook for mi de two egg mee suan.. haha den she ask mi wan go buy cake.. rush down to nex to buy a cake from swiss bake hazelnut crunch.. not bad but wonder whether it is the same as sam birthday tat cake.. mum say not very nice still prefer the angie the choice.. hai.. and go yoga late after tat..
sad ting today is dear nv celebrate with mi.. and he oly coming back on the sunday.. sob sob.. so long.. wonder whether will miss his birthday too.. his present still waiting for him to cme back and buy together.. waiting for Sam dear dear's home cook birthday treat.. haha.. so contradicting.. hope he faster cme back but don wan schol reopen to cme fast.. which falls on the next day.. lol!! hai..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 10:40 PM
Friday, December 3, 2010 Y
Dear pet owners, think whether u or ur family treat ur pets well.. Pets have emotions too.. Put urself in their shoes and c if u r happy when someone treat u the same way as how u or ur family treat them.. if not, please do not torture them or end up giving their lives away.. Don't buy pet if u cnt be responsible or treat them well.. Save animals from torturing and cruelty or may u be torture by ur revenge pets..
some owner or their family are so cruel.. they tink that pets are just some doll or toy and start hitting them when they are angry.. or cause them to an accidental or purposely kill by u.. their lives are not for u to waste it.. If u cnt be careful around them and treat them well dont buy pets.. else u will get what u deserve soon..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 9:26 AM
Monday, November 22, 2010 Y
first time go malaysia without my mum and without my school.. but with my bf and frens.. haha.. went in go eat bah ku teh.. very nice.. but the aunty bluff mi.. say put mix inside the soup but i don c one piece of kidney in the soup.. but still nice.. and she forgot out you tiao.. we also forgot.. until after finish le then rmb my you tiao gone.. then go beside de shop bought a cuttlefish.. those liu yu.. after that we go holiday inn buy couple tees.. at last got our couple tees and the sizes.. tat shop de is print for u de.. but nid wait a while den cn get.. bought one cookie monster shirt for my baby nephew also.. very cheap de.. lose to dear dear in sissors paper stone.. so i took the one tat is nv eat rice oly wash bowl.. dear take the oly eat rice nv wash bowl.. so sad..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 9:53 AM
Saturday, November 20, 2010 Y
today fishing trip in all bad luck got a little gd luck.. reach there not a while rain till very heavy.. although i lik it better than sunny.. haha.. to me still gd luck.. just hated the wet part.. after that, we caught a big crab.. so many crab net there, no one caught while we accidentally caught one big de using fish rod.. haha.. contradicting.. rain so heavy tat the further ship very blur.. like ghost ship.. eat my fav seafood today.. stingray and sotong.. tomolo going malaysia.. finally without my mum with my friends not for school.. excited, looking forward..
♥ WO AI NI ♥ 11:52 PM
