Alone time

Now in the mulia hotel enjoying my alone time listening to music. 5 stars hotel with bathtub. The last time i was here i soak everyday and end up with uti. This time need to stop myself from tubbing too long and too frequent. Hai. Looking at the big bathtub so nice so seductive but cannot soak too long. Will be here for 1 week. So while here just try to enjoy the time. No need wash clothes got free laundry. Don need wake up too early for work. Every morning got breakfast to eat.

The only bad thing abt this hotel is the internet super slow. Cannot watch show. Recently watching china show and this actor call chen ruoxuan 辰若轩 so handsome. When he smile so cute. But see him will make me think of someone else. His look is so similar to my secondary school mate. The smile can melt your heart. I wonder how his mother can stand him. Everytime make mistake give sad face everything also can forgive liao. Hahaha. How can someone be so cute. I dont mind having such a cute brother sia.

Last friday got gambro gathering. Anna came to singapore for visit. Meet up with us chit chat and talk abt her australia life. I still considering going australia for my solo trip but still not decided where i should go. Maybe still somewhere with beach still most suitable for me. Had a catch up with them. Everybody is gd and still happy. Had one or 2 cup of alcohol that night too.

I want to retire in a place with a house near the beach. Got beach chair just sit there watch the sea everyday. At night with the sea breeze blowing at you while you view the stars above. This kind of retirement plan seems to be a dream if you are from singapore.

My cousins one by one are getting married and having kids. While for me I still having contradiction whether to have kids a not. Sometimes i feel have kids also gd something to distract u from a boring usual life. Also dear say must have kids then consider a whole family. But the freedom that u need to sacrifice is another thing i not willing to do. Another thing is your finances. Kids need a lot of money which also means you cant enjoy all that you earn.

Next year really need to plan a trip to somewhere. Should i go china go the beach that the cute guy show on the video? Looks like a quiet place. Or go Fiji again since still got so much fijian dollar left? Or go a cheaper option of belitung?

Finally got my key for the house a step closer to my freedom. Can do whatever i like and want to do. Freedom like my butterfly tattoo. Freedom to fly anywhere and away from annoying things i see in my life. Like his stubborn dad. Currently i not staying at his house i will so much better. No dirty shower or clothes or floor. Although my house not very quiet also but at least only got one person nagging but the entire house shouting and talking super loudly.

Today seems to feel my mood lifted. Doesnt seems to be as depressed as ytd. Hopefully this refresh feeling will continue. 😎😉

Next month going jb with dor and joce to celebrate our birthday. Currently don't have much excitement abt my birthday yet. But I am hoping for a super romantic encounter to electrify my restless heart.

Depressed

Recently i have been feeling depressed often. Crying without a reason. Always feel like going somewhere alone or drinking some alcohol. Today i am away alone on a business trip and have been feeling upset for no reason. Tears just drop down when i am on the plane and also when i am alone in the room. It feels like I am missing out on something that I do not know.

Valentine day and birthday

This year keep quarrel with dear dear and push dear dear to plan. At last dear got plan for birthday. He plan to go bbq. Book the pit and buy food. He plan to bbq steak for me. So we celebrated my  birthday at changi beach. Although he forgot to bring my fav hot dog we still have a gd time.. Valentine is again bbq but bbq with different food.. He say to bbq my fav cod fish.. So we went shopping the day before and bought cod fish and scallop though is paid by me as he got no money but is the effort that make me happy. When he wake up the next day. He prepare the marination of the cod fish and scallop and come out with different marination.  Though the food not very nice but still happy to see him putting the effort for the day.

Life

Quarreling is never inevitable in life.. Communicating your point across to a stubborn, self centered, coward person is what to me toughest thing to do when in a heated agrument.

Some people just cannot admit when they are at fault.

1st of all u forgot about our plans for today 

2nd u make a promise and u broke it without an apology. Despite that, still act like not in the wrong. Quote "what is wrong with me going eat with my sister?" Response: nth is wrong when u eat with ur sister. But not when u arrange to eat with me first. U will get angry and saying how can ur friend do that when u and ur friend had a arrangement to meet up and he went to meet another friend instead. So what the difference now when u do it to even worse ur WIFE. And stop bringing up ur sisters as a shield and trying to find excuse for your mistake of not able to keep the promise. Next time i will do the same and let u hav a taste of ur own medicine.

3rd not being considerate for your partner. Despite knowing that he is unable to reach in time and does not have car still keeping it secret and not wanting to make the effort to inform the partner and not sorry for Making the partner waited for at least 2 hours for her lunch to miracally appear. Quote "i am sorry for not tabaoing for u but the stall have sold the food. I cannot predict that what." & "i didnt ask u to wait for me for lunch what". Response yea, i am stupid to be waiting to have my lunch delivered when someone said he will tabao for me. And stupid enough to expect that he will at least have the heart to let his partner know when he cannot make it or at least rush things and not let his partner starve. Should have just ate on my own and couldnt care less about him. Well at least i know my mistake. Will never wait for him for lunch even when he say he will eat lunch with me.

4th didnt have the consideration to inform his partner that his sister is borrowing the car. Only inform when reach that if we going to eat chicken rice at amk we got to take bus there after the wife has been starve for 2 hours. blame it on the partner for having a expectation that he will be driving when he has a car and drive most of the time. Doesnt stop there, still have the cheek to say since when do i need to report to you when my sister borrow the car? Wow. So since u are so selfish abt sharing such info. then u know what? pay back for the car installment and downpayment that u took from the account. Do not think about using any more money from that shared account cause is not used for ur personal assets. Just a reminder that I can do without ur stupid car. Also sell off the motorcycle and return half of my money. And not going give u any money when u are lazy to find a work. Get ur ass off ur hse and go find a job and earn money for urself. Why? Cause we are not partners if u don treat me like one. And why should i giving u when u don even bother..

5th blaming on saying he need his personal space to settle his family matters. Note to self. **Guess u not part of the family. So dont be an idiot and see when u stand in "his family."

Conclusion  is just a simple thing.

Apologize for all the mistakes when I get angry and when u are in the wrong. But no.. Apologizing will take a piece of meat from him so he cannot just apologize and settle things. he has to quote a lot of nasty things and argue his way out every single time.

Oh no. Not this time. Cant argue ur way out this time. Giving in to u plenty of time and definitely again not this time.

new update

Join Baxalta effective feb but cannot be use to the culture here. Well they keep saying is culture difference but too me is colleagues. People here are not as friendly and too competitive. Even within dept is like fighting internal war.. People like to flip pratas in this company and is hard to work with uncooperative people.. Standard here for finance are so much higher and other dept seems to bully accounting team. Furthermore, leader fail to support the internal team and feel that she just add more oil or push blame to cover herself.. in accounting team, especially my scope, I feel that once u do one mistake other dept will be waiting eagerly to shoot arrows at u.. After long consideration, At last I have resigned and is nowing serving notice. Last day early nov.. Found myself another job 2 weeks into my notice and going to work at glico.. new job new environment and new colleagues provide a new start. Fueling up and motivated to join them. Higher pay and have sufficient break time. excellent for me =)

Early march went to perth with dear and mum. nature trip with sightseeing and see a lot of animals.
Best trip is to go for seal watching trip with Turquoise safaris. The owner Kane is an excellent guide. When pulling of the boat equipment from the sea, we realize there is an octopus hiding in it. Managed to hold it and play with it for a while before releasing it into the sea. After which,We get to swim with 2 cute baby seals and also plenty of live fresh rock lobsters to eat. Kane brought us to pull lobster pot after the seal watching. He gave us all the live rock lobsters caught. They are all red in color. We took back to hotel and just froze them. After that boiled them. Fantastic and delicious..
We also get to see kangaroos, walk super duper long to find the koala enclosure as we are so dumb. haha.. Is super fun to drive around in the caravan. Get to shop for gocery every now and then to cook and eat and travel all at the same time. So shiok.. Perfect.. Also we went for shopping ate a super nice trolls favor ice cream at frementle.. ate super nice fish and chips, doughnut and ramen at the market.. Plus get to see Quokkas at the Rottnest island.. There are some down side.. which we didn't get to ride on the bus that cost us AUD 20 but we got free bicycle to travel rottnest island. Beach at perth is such an amazing view.. u get to drive beside the sea.. so breathtaking. Also paid a bloody expensive visa to go perth at USD 90 if I am not wrong recommended by the hotel staff. while my husband only paid $25.. shouldn't listen to the flight staff.. Then I bought a cheese and fremantle but left it at the hotel.. sian.. Overall, trip is good and would like to go again..

Counting down to 10 more days and I will be at Mui Ne enjoying the sun and the beautiful sea. since march till now didn't go overseas at all.. other than Malaysia.. and Malaysia not counted..This trip is for next year march anniversary. Pushing it forward in case we do not have money next year. As next year we are going for honeymoon plus our house is coming.. anyway still Deciding if I should book the hot air balloons to surprise my dear.. he probably will like it.. but it is expensive.. Check the price of hot air balloon else where and it seems this in mui ne is considered reasonable and cheaper.. the company is new though but equipment, pilot is known to be from Europe.. Guess most likely I will proceed to book.. Well for another fishing trip not sure if I wan to proceed.. Both tour are in early morning.. so we shall see..

Dear isn't working for about 1 and half month.. was a bit worried as we not enough money to renovate house and go for honeymoon next year.. and also worried that he get use to laze at home without a job like his father and depend on me.. hopefully we can get our expenses up and does not need to use my personal money too much.

lastly my grandma is going for cataract surgery tomorrow.. pray and hope that everything goes well and she recover as fast as possible.. sounds scary to have someone cutting your eye.. although my ah ma say she not scare but I tink she is when she know is not local anesthesia and she will be awake during the surgery.. I myself is afraid for her.. went to search what patient can see during the surgery and it seems like she wont be able to see the doctor equipment but only some lights here and there.. So felt more comfortable.. hope she don feel the fear stay strong through out the surgery..

lifestyle

I am doing a post and update as Im very bored at work currently.. And do not have the mood to do work.. today is Friday and my mind is having holiday already.. Cant wait to reach 5.30pm to dismiss from work.. Updates of my life below.

1. Baxter is having some shared services program soon and would probably have retrenchment for functional dept next end.. Baxalta is recruiting finance team as their shared services is decided to be in Singapore.. My Colleagues and I have applied for the position.. and 2 of us got shortlisted to join which is me and Jessie.. at first I am still contemplating on whether to join or just remain in the company.. My mum, friend, dear and Jessie were encouraging me to go over.. Therefore I decided to join.. Jessie mentioned.. Don worry.. I will be there too.. I am not pushing you to die.. we are just jumping from one fire pit to another.. haha.. this sentence kind of worry me though.. But well, I still decided to join.. And then when I moved over in Feb, Jessie will be my manager in Baxalta..

2. After 8 years of dating, Sam propose to me during our anniversary trip in Cebu Philippines.. Cebu is a very very nice place to snorkel and dive.. I hope to be there again.. So how did the proposal went.. We were staying at dauin.. the place I went for snorkeling while Sam went for his advanced diving course.. At night Sam suggest to go for a walk at the beach.. So we were strolling along the beach holding hands side by side.. He kicked the water to show me something that his instructor showed him during the course.. While he kicked, something glow in the water which only happens at night.. Heard of that before somewhere in some country has that and it is beautiful.. But the pictures I saw on the net has it on the beach sand to.. But it does not seem so.. So I ask them if he is sure something is glowing or it is just bubbles reflection cause it clearly looked like bubbles forming when he is kicking or waving the water.. His reaction was the same as mine and we wondered if his instruction is lying about it.. Well, anyway, after being curious of the water, I told him that I feel tired and would like to head back.. one thing about me.. I am afraid of the dark.. That area does not have any lights so it is quite dark and remind me of these news about some insect or worm which hides in the sand and will go into your body through your feet.. So that sort of creep me out.. He said He does not want to go back yet and would like to stroll further.. So we walk a bit further till it getting darker down the lane and I am getting more anxious about the insect thing.. So he questioned on my request to head back and ask what is wrong.. So I told him the story about the insect which hides in the sand and will go into your body through your feet.. He told me not too worry and he is walking in front of me.. So even if there is such insect he will be there to block it for me first.. Then he proceed to say that he will always be there to block the rain or sun or whatever that comes in our way if I am willing to.. When he say that, I just treat it as his sweet talk and just laugh it off.. Then he said he is serious.. If I give him the chance he is willing to protect and block anything for me.. Well, so touching.. But I didn't cry.. Just then, I realize maybe he is proposing to me.. He dig his bag for the ring.. and show it to me.. So I ask him is that all? Then need kneel on one knee and ask me if I would marry him.. But I want to hear more from him.. What else.. I said I want him to pour his heart out.. He promise a couple of things which I will list now so we remember in the future.
1) Bring me on a trip every year on our anniversary.. Only 2 of us.. even if we have children we are not bringing along.
2) Never to be like his irresponsible and useless father, slack at home without work
3) Never to be like the size of Desmund or just say never to be very fat.
4) Always love and dote on me and even if we have children. I have more priority and love than our children..
5) He will protect me from everything that is to come.
These promises will be recorded here and set as a reminder..

After all these, we went back to our room.. That when I realize his knee is bleeding and he said it was nth.. I ask if he hurt his knee while kneeling at the beach.. The beach is full of seashells than sand.. He said yes but it is worth it.. Another touching part.. The most touching part would be when he was asleep, I look at his phone and come across this note that he was keeping.. it is on the words that I have said when we quarrel and he is keeping a note of his promises.. Never to speak vulgarities to me etc.. That is when I am so touched to know that it really listens when I am talking.. For all these he gets full marks from me.. Well, the last part was not known to him..

3. From that proposal, I started to work on the wedding, Book the banquet venue, source of our wedding packages etc.. Come across these Korean Wedding photoshoot which interest me.. Reason being the photos will all be send back to us.. Which as much as I know myself, I wont only take the limited pictures.. I will definitely get more than that.. So this helps to save cost and this also help me to reason out with him to go for this.. Which means we will be going to Korea.. more cost.. And I argue on that this will be considered as our anniversary trip for 2017.. He then agreed..

As I failed to check the weather before I booked, Jan - March is winter season and will not be good for me.. So we decided to postpone our Perth trip from Oct to March and plan our trip in Oct.. So now I am already back from Korea and have our wedding photos done.. it is fun and rushing but the results are not bad.. It is quite cold in korea and we did shopping during our whole trip there.. eat shop eat shop.. the food is nice.. and a lot of private time for the 2 of us too.. We went for Onsen too.. The onsen there is fantastic.. Cheap and good.. though soaking alone is boring.. That when I wish Dorothy is there with me.. haha..

Also we have hen's party coming in Jan to Bali, and a friends relax trip at Bintan during Christmas..
Cant wait for the Christmas trip to come.. Plan my bridemaids, invited my Emcees, book my banquet hotel which will be at Village Hotel Katong.. Quite satisfying with my negotiation skills for the banquet and the photoshoot package though.. felt that I got a good deal.. haha

Lastly cant wait to be married off, get our own house and stay together..


4. Family. We have 3 little ones in our family.. Aaralyn, Aaden and Alvan.. why their name all start with A? Well Kiasu parents I guess.. You know schools always have their line up with alphabet so start with A you will be the first.. Sad thing is Aaralyn and Aaden will be going US again for 2 years.. Hai.. going to miss them.. The rest of the family members no news to update.. Huai Yu and Yee Sim are married.. So maybe we will have additional members soon too.. Kun Xiang is getting married next year too.. End of the year..

5. Friends.. Dor is working at recruitment agency.. not sure which one I forgot.. and she is super busy.. Jocelyn has been planning badminton and we have been playing together for a few weeks.. for gambro, Jasmine and Charlotte is having a baby girl next year in Feb.. And we have new members during our gathering, 3 new members.. haha from Jason, Vinsonn and Priscilla..

That all for the update till next time.. =)

Valentine Day

This year's valentine day has no surprise or present or gift.. Other than telling my bf to deliver mac to me for breakfast.. Went out as per usual day.. A bit disappointed although we nv didnt celebrate much valentine the past few years anyway.. Was quite looking forward to this year's.. Since very long got no surprise liao.. Always say will own self plan his surprise.. Ask liao jiu no surprise.. I wait lol.. But see the pattern.. Nv say nv do de.. Own self plan wait until die liao I tink also don hav..

Next Looking forward to the anniversary trip.. Counting down to 2 more weeks.. Going to apo island dumaguete cebu Phillipines this year..

Anyway for update and memories.. This year birthday present is a baking mixer.. Been making cakes a few times already.. Need more practices..

Life in 2016

Today is 11 of Feb.. Chinese new year is on 8th Feb.. So far so good for 2016..

Everyone in the family is well.. Same new year visiting.. 2 of my cousins are married last year.. 2 more hong bao to receive.. Less gambling this year as the 2 cousins need to attend to their in laws side.. however, got other kind of entertainment.. Got 2 nephews and 1 niece to play with.. haha.. our little princess of the family.. always running around chasing after her daddy.. haha..

Had a new reporting manager.. Now reporting to the new baxter manager.. Kind, super generous and friendly.. lucky me.. nice colleagues and good boss.. hopefully got more salary increment or progress in my career this year though..

Coming to our 9th year anniversary, this year we are going to Philippines, Dumaguete and Cebu city for our anniversary.. probably not diving for me but advanced course for my dear Samuel Woo.. Approaching valentine day this year.. wondering if there is any surprise this year.. though probably spending the day at my er yi house.. cause it is still new year.. the new year visiting..

Questions not to ask

Being in the current age sucks.. Why? Everywhere u go ppl ask u the same thing.. Got bf a not? When get married? When hav children.. Blah blah blah.. Seriously, if we wan to get married, we will.. U will get invitation.. Unless u are not close enough.. Then I get married or not also don matter to u.. Don need to ask.. Not married of course cannot hav kids la.. Need to faster.. Faster what? Faster head la.. Marry can fast de meh? Hav kids can fast de meh.. I prefer having kids when I am mature enough to educate them.. Not anyhow hav kids just because u lik kids or just because of ur horny moments..

Another thing is asking of houses.. Say don know how many times liao.. People still ask.. When u get hbd? Location at where ar? If u cnt rmb, means u are not int.. If u are not int, then why the hell keep asking me the same questions over and over again.. Tell u 2018 liao.. Few months later ask again.. When u get ur hdb ar? Haven get yet ar? Hello.. Now is 2015 only leh.. 3 months later still 2015 u know.. Not like 3 months later, it will jump to 2018..

At this age, other than all these questions no other questions already meh? If u wan ask not cnt.. Just ask once.. Once enough liao.. If ppl say haven married yet, not yet.. Then maybe u should keep ur mouth shut instead of asking questions lik.. Why haven? When going to get married? Hello.. Is I marry or u marry? My mum also nv ask.. Marriage need planning de ok.. Not happy happy one day tell u I go rom liao.. 3 months later invite u to wedding de ok.. U ask so much for wat.. Ask liao I also don know right? The guy also haven propose what u wan me to do? Hdb get liao means within these few years lol..

Fed up with ppl asking these questions that I sometimes just cnt be bothered to reply.. Maybe I should just ask them back sarcastically how u get married last time? When u decide to get marry? The guy propose to u right? Ah then, u ask me for wat? Or when u shot gun got kids right.. U can see my stomach is flat.. Not going to xian shang che hou mai piao.. Ur pushing and pressurizing to us does not get the work done u know.. Nv heard the sentence mian qiang mei you xin fu meh.. My marriage is my marriage.. Now become lik become everybody's business lik tat.. Don tell me stuff lik u need to prepare money.. Wedding dinner cost u how much? At most $200.. Is not like I will suddenly invite u 1 month later eh can attend my wedding dinner.. Confirm will hav enough time de wat.. Wedding dinner leh.. Not 1 month baby shower leh..

Proposal

Saw one post regarding worst marriage proposal with a caution note.. Its say to check with ur partner if she /he lik a public proposal.. The answer will be no for me.. Marriage proposal has to be private.. Romantic.. Not show off to everyone that u are getting marry.. Not mentioning the awkwardness and I think it will be embarrassing to me.. Simple, sweet, surprising proposal is enough already as long as ur partner is the one who make effort to think and plan how to make it works.. Is enough already.. Well, enough for me..

Proposing on birthday or valentine day.. Why not must as well propose on ur anniversary day.. More meaningful than birthday or valentine day.. The day u go steady with ur partner.. The day ur partner said yes on ur first 'propose'.. Best propose and rom on the same day.. Wedding dinner put one year later on the same day.. Haha less dates to remember.. Don hav to be question /test yearly by ur partner which day propose, which day rom, and celebrate all diff days tat just represent 'you are married'..

Photography is a must to me on the proposal.. More important than having a photographer on ur wedding day.. Take down the surprise moment.. The big change of ur life.. 10, 20 years down the road, u can still reminisce that day.. Or show it to ur kids.. Obviously the photographer must be privately hidden, can ask a friend to help if u are on budget and do not want to hire one.. Or u just take that moment urself.. Plan it in ur proposal.. Adjust ur camera hidden at right angle.. Whichever way works..

My friends ask me what is my dream proposal.. Simple.. Just a night out flying kite.. a led proposal kite.. Element of surprise.. Kneeling a must.. Words from bottom of his heart.. Diamond ring yes.. That all..

Vietnam Trip

Travel.. Going for my vietnam trip soon with my bff dor and joce.. So tired currently looking forward for that trip to relax myself.. Haven go for this trip already thinking abt going for koh samui for anniversary and australia.. Haha.. Money is a big issue though..

Work.. Just receive news that I will be integrated into baxter finance.. Organization structure is weird and unfair though.. But see how next year ba.. Can only Look forward to my dec bonus..

Learning a lot of new tings currently.. Dance yoga zumba.. My way to be healthy.. A few time a week.. Hopefully in future I can learn piano too.. When I have a house can put piano..

Now is durian season.. Hahaha.. Eat and eat and eat.. Still feeling at eating now but scare too heaty.. So don dare to eat.. But lik haven eat enough lik tat..

My senior went malaysia bought me a packet of famous amos cookies.. Hahaha.. Nice.. Now everyday go work enjoy.. But lik too much liao.. Everyday I only eat 2-3 pieces.. Wonder when then finish..

My mum is asking me for another $50 then she help me wash clothes iron clothes etc.. Wonder whos mum is lik my mum paid to do all those housework for daughter.. Still say she not maid.. Tat day my mum was looking at my cards in my wallet keep asking is it debit card? Then I frustrated.. Ya ya debit card why? She say my aunt ask y I nv sub a card for my mum.. Say what based on my salary can sub a card for my mum.. Say all these bullshit to my mum for wat? Why she so kpo de.. Go ask her kids sub card for her la when they work.. Discipline her own kids.. Don Come disturb other ppl family..

I cant slp

I cant slp today.. Cause im disappointed today.. Been tinking abt stuff tat I wish I can don tink abt.. But its too disturbing for me.. I don even know if I can still belive my bf.. Cause every single time he makes a promise he meant it to be broken.. Every single time and repeatedly.. Even for the smallest promise.. And if promise are meant to be broken.. Then why or how would I trust to be under ur care.. Ur promise are never fulfiled.. U can promise to take care of me.. Promise never to betray me.. Promise every single ting u wan.. But can I trust u if ur promises are only meant to be broken and u will have million of excuses for breaking them.. The promise and the try? Where are they? I don see it.. Oh I do.. First few days and after tat? Gone.. Hack care.. Bo chap.. If so.. Sorry.. I cnt take a bo chap irresponsible person to be my bf anymore.. My patience has a limit and I tink I have been saying that for a year already.. Maybe is time to take action since I am seeing more and more true colors coming out from u.. And those ting tat I cnt stand and have been constantly saying.. But its just seems lik.. The more I say the more frequent the pattern is out.. If nth else change on ur promises and ur try.. Then maybe it is time because by then i will probably have already lose trust and faith..

Mentally tired and unmotivated

Mentally tired and unmotivated abt everything.. What will happen if my patience has used up and I decided to give up despite putting so much time? Then I will be wasting my time.. Time vs Result.. I hate waiting and hate being stagnant.. Will the result I get be able to compensate the time I wait?

Money, time and result.. How I wish I can know what is the relationship between them and choose the most worth option..

The moment when u feel lifeless and angry and lastly sad when all ur goals are not hit.. Its time to rethink ur options carefully.. There is not much time to lose.. Decide, take action and say ur goodbye to whatever u decide to give up and nv look back after tat..

Next year mar.. Hopefully I can tolerate till then.. Or maybe this year nov or dec I will decide to give up already.. If I manage to tolerate, next year mar will be the time I will choose to give up or continue.. Though it is obvious I will give up if no actions was given by then.. And variable unchanged.. Now to next year think it through carefully.. There is still a lot of other options u can choose..

penang

this year anniversary trip is at Penang.. Relax, eat, slp and shop.. Dear got me a bouquet of nice flowers with a meh meh.. Is cheaper there.. If everyday also lik tat relax jiu hao.. Food is nice but what I learn is never order crab in MY.. Definitely not Nice.. The beef kuay teow and curry mee with zhu xue gao damn delicious.. If sg have jiu hao.. Haha.. Well if everyday lik tat after a while will bored also.. 

Job update.. Irony.. I resign and then the hr emcourage me to stay.. Not long after I withdraw resignation, I receive news that hr resign.. Lol.. Well.. Didnt quit my job in the end.. This month having bonus.. No diff from last year though.. Counting down to this fri to get the money.. Wahaha.. Time for shopping?

House.. Getting my house only 3-5 years later.. Thats long.. Will be in marsiling.. slightly regret Mainly Cause my cousin all moving north east then I move to north west.. Lik Wth.. 

Family update.. My baby niece is back from US.. Cute adorable petite and boyish.. Haha.. comparing to my another baby newphew size.. same age size divide by around 1.5?

Right in pink my baby NIECE.. Always mistaken as boy boy.. My cousin say wear pink plus pink stroller, ppl still say waa ur ah boy very cute.. Haha.. Eyes ta stamp.. Left in white the baby nephew same age.. Boy in blue, the grow up nephew.. Bro of the girl.. Will disturb And elbow the sleeping sis and act 'mummy, mei mei wake up liao' in order to play with her.. Haha I tink kids are like tat.. I do that too when I was young.. Haha..  today was showing my colleague my niece and nephew photo.. She ask me u lik kids hor.. Faster go have one.. I say lik.. Kids are fun to play.. But need to teach not easy.. they are not lik toys.. Fun to play but once born cnt play liao throw or donate.. I see some parents who only can make love make babies. But don know how to teach.. Their kids turn out disaster.. And still some make a lot despite unable to teach.. Sometimes I wonder some Parents that I see personality so lousy.. how to teach their kids.. So if I want to have kids.. Make sure im mature enough to teach and nurture them.. Personality is very important.. 

envy

Some thing just cannot see.. See liao only make u envious.. hai.. What's past already past.. Cant bring back time.. Message to myself.. Learn to appreciate what u have.. Don keep envy other people.. One dream down, focus to make the rest happen.. =)

time to change job

Im so bored.. Tink it is time to change job.. Nth in this job interest me now.. Plus the benefits sucks.. So boring.. Time to change a higher pay job.. Looking for job now.. Praying and hoping I will find a good pay high job.. Mum just resign from her job too.. 2 months notice period if I wan to change job.. Super idiot kind of policy.. Hai.. Well don hav a choice.. Saying goodbye to this company soon.. Hopefully within 3 months.. Though I may miss my seniors and my colleagues.. But.. We can still be friends.. Can still go out.. Haha.. Hopefully after I left can still stay in touch.. Pity my senior.. After I left she will be damn busy.. Taking over my stuff also.. On one hand I hope got someone taking over me will be better or same as me.. Can help everyone and my senior.. On the other hand it will means that I am just the same as others.. No diff in capability.. Hai so contradicting.. One hand wan to prove my capability.. On the other hand wan someone that can help my senior and my cs colleague.. Contradicting.. Still wish me good luck in finding my next job.. Excited plus anxious.. Bit of worried too..

fed up with her

Today I wake up and see someting.. Make me super fed up.. Does older ppl mean they are more stupid and brainless.. She put my pot of soil with in a bag of other stuff.. Yes.. Maybe she wan to save space or just wan to pack my stuff.. But use some brain la.. Now all my stuff are stain with soil.. Lucky is just jacket shield.. If it is clothes I seriously going to scream at her.. I already wanted to scream at her and ask if she got brain a not.. Who puts soil with clothes..

My Birthday

Its my birthday again.. Am 23 years old.. Waiting for my bf currently to come oved and cook steak for me.. Haha.. My handmake birthday treat from dear dear.. Just sit there and be serve.. This year I lost my dear first year buy for me de necklace.. So sad worst part don know where I drop it.. Hai.. So memorable de ting also lost.. This year dear bought me another necklace to replace the new one.. Is diamond star necklace.. Sort of match my present for last year.. I choose it myself so its confirm very.nice.. Haha.. Dear say this will be my birthday and valentine day present hehe.. This month I bought watch, belt, wallet as dear dear de birthday plus christmas present.. Dear give me de present is manicure nail polish set.. Haha.. Gian that since last year liao..

bali trip

Dear: why u so long never update on blog..
Me: got a while nv update liao.. Recently got nth to post leh.. No event and no holiday.. Dear: laugh.. Where got no holiday?
Me: where hav.. When?
Dear: we just went to bali.. Have such a unforgettable memory..
Me: ya hor.. When we go ar?
Dear: cant imagine u already forget.. We just went in sep..
Me: oh.. Haha

So now I updating bali trip.. Went for hot spring.. Is lik soaking in just hot water.. Don feel spring at all.. There is nice food though.. We ate the crispy pork skin.. So fantastic.. Ate crisy duck also and many many nice indonesian food.. Didn't bought much stuff back to sg.. The villa is so shiok.. Two bedroom, onr private swimming pool and jacuzzi.. Too bad my mum is there haha else got our own private space.. Sunset dinnet is so nice and wonderful and the dolphin watching.. Wow.. We brought our gopro.. So can see the dolphin underwater diving.. Nice.. Someting bad abt this trip.. I make my mum cry.. Why? Because she qian ma.. Bath finish jiu say y ppl bath so slow.. Say we take our own sweet time.. When we didnt.. The stupid driver also another one.. Useless.. Don doe how to plan.. Keep bringing us to those tourist expensive until siao de area.. Wan go eat de location nv go bring us to other location.. Then we not scare not enough money.. Then my mum still there nagging and nagging y u nv do lik that.. U should lik tat when all done has already been done.. Already irritated still add her stupid oil to fire.. Get scolded already then cry.. Still need me to go and please her.. I told her she better don follow her friend de footsteps else no body will wan to go overseas with her any more.. In the end.. I think everyone still enjoy the trip.. Will I go again? Maybe not in near future..

Colleague outing - Pork Knuckles

Today going to eat pork knuckles at Raffles Place with my colleagues.. We have doing a lot of activites and outing etc before moving to new office.. At new office they have yoga on Tue and zumba on Thurs. Free of Charge. So good. Then can dismiss early at like 4.30 to go there for the classes.. Damn shiok.. and still dismiss at 6pm.. one of the nice perks of this integration.
This week got cramps all over.. Tue i went Yoga, then wed play Basketball and thurs go belly dancing.. Wed me and dear met an ah ma in the lift very old le.. the ah ma keep saying she 80 plus liao.. old liao.. going to die liao.. just waiting for death only.. u hear le also feel sad.. she say she scare don doe when is her turn as her neighbour just pass away.. One moment u are just talking to them.. the next moment they are gone.. of course they will feel frighten..
Currently got a lot of new about airplanes crash again.. What wrong with the planes nowadays.. innocent ppl are dying or missing.. I saw a post online.. This 15 year old girl is like me.. living with only her mum.. Her mum was in that plane as an air stewardess.. In her post she stated that she miss her mummy and she is back to alone again.. When I saw this, I cried.. Just because of some political ting.. ppl lost their family just like tat.. one day you are with them, the next they are gone.. you nv know what happens in the next second.. This imprinted deeply that one should cherish and treasure their love ones.. And also treasure their own lives.. Lastly rest in peace for those who are gone..
Another ting to take note about lives is don do reckless or dangerous thing and leave ur family behind to suffer.. when u are gone u are at peace but ur loves one who are still here will be the ones suffering from the lost of u and missing u.. Please don tink just about urself..

Going to Cameron Highland

Cannot wait to go to Cameron Highland. Already booked the hotel.. Altas hotel.. haha.. Now already can drool about the sweet corn there and the chocolates.. Still rmb the dessert store and the souvenir store beside it selling chocolates that is so nice..
recently got quite a lot of activities.. Have our company BBQ on 12 Jul Sat.. Next we will have our pork knuckles on 25 Jul.. And then planning a mid autumn festival on 8 Sep.. Aug got a few makan makan events too.. 2 Aug dear and I will be selecting our flats.. BTO at marsiling or admiralty.. Than 8 Aug will be our Trip to Cameron Highland.. Following Bali Trip.. haha.. on 24 Sep..
I am searching for dance classes.. Trying to arrange diff dance on the weekdays.. a bit hard.. Exotic dance only on weekends.. Then Dor only can go for belly dance on Thurs.. So i am tinking.. Belly dance thurs and maybe argentine tango with dear on Tue on sun.. or pole dance first ba.. will try to arrange ba..

alone mood

My legs hurts.. Today after meeting ivy and eileen feel so bored.. Got the mood of being alone and walking.. So I was tinking of walking until tired den take bus home.. In the end I walk all the way home from amk.. Since sec schol I sometimes have tis kind of feeling just feel lik walking.. Walk in malls.. Or take a swing at punggol.. Been so long since I have tat feel.. Sometimes still need some time alone.. Emo.. Haha.. Today got the feel again but tis time I walk for so long.. Just got the depress mood I guess or the don wan to be disturb mood.. Now got the tired mood le.. Been wondering y life is so boring.. Work slp meet friends socalize tat all.. Real life is always so practical.. No money means nth..

Been watching twilight repeatedly.. So tinking abt the difference in life.. Haha.. Sometimes tinking been immortal is gd too.. Dreaming abt all the romance.. Well love in fantasy is always big difference from reality.. Just have to accept it ba.. Well going to bath and slp le.. Gd nite.. And happiest thing is me and dear got our flat le.. At woodland.. Yay..

Friday always the happy last working day of the week.

today is friday. our company is going on a shopping spree again. We just went yesterday for shopping at Vivo. I bought like at least 10 dresses after my exam.. shopping spree going out of control.. haha.. THen i promise dear to not buy dresses anymore for 1 year.. which not sure if I can really do that haha.. said it because I wan to buy the dresses from forever new.. the very ex shop but on sales.. due to great sg sales.. Everybody doesnt seems to have mood to work in this company due to to bought over and going to move over to new office. Closing is coming again. And more report to do for the intregration. But i have extra capacity so should be ok with me. Today Breakfast is Corn Flake. Dor keep laughing at me last time for pronouncing as corn flat.. Well. I am currently still pronouncing it as corn flat.. Hahaha. A habit my mum taught..
Yesterday joce ask me out to go paya lebar walk walk.. guess it is the hari raya nite market.. been so long since i went to a night market. recently after exam I just slack at home watch show never really go out.. Other than some trial dance. Went on a ktv session with my uni frens.. having the long wait for the results to be out.. hope all of us pass with good grades. sooner or later I will go sign up for the contemporary dance.. we'll see ba.. Maybe pole dance too.
Yesterday Dear ride me to ponggol end.. New building is up with pier and big boat around etc.. saw a super big Grouper at the seafood restaurant.. but the boat kill the nice scenery to dine there and the ponds there is now full of tortise.. so cute.. well probably the guppies all that small fishes already eaten by the ponds tortise.. all looking at you waiting for you to feed them.. I told Dear today I going to buy 5 cabbages to feed the tortise.. Dear say u serious.. tomolo we comming again ar? I say haha.. yes.. They very ke lian got nth to eat. the pond totally has no food lol.. then we do some chit chatting abt my fren fabian and abt his fren winston. Dear say they have similarities.. Winston is a big flirt.. Fabian is not.. That is a big difference already..
10 Min more and we will be heading to vivo for our shopping spree again.. haha..

dumpling festival

Dumpling festival is here again.. went to ah ma hse to make ba zhang.. this year got a lot of diff variety.. we have salted egg, spicy shrimp, abalone, red bean, normal and nyona.. eat until siao.. I tink I have eaten at least 10 ba zhang this year.. highest record.. this year my ah ma even wanted to put onion in the ba zhang.. if I am not there toccustomized my own ba zhang.. guess tis year don nid to eat le.. so every year must go.. haha.. After exam lol.. is relax time now.. went on an online shopping spree.. bought a lot of stuff.. toothbrush umbrella dresses.. I tink I bought 7 dresses at one go.. wow.. haha.. well not ex de dresses la.. should stop looking at clothes le.. Wanted to book a yacht on deal.com de.. just went dor and joce both agree the deal sold out.. sian.. I been looking at the yacht for years liao.. last time quite ex.. just when they is a gd deal I am too late to buy.. hope there is another gd deal out soon.. Arrange to cut my hair and facial.. wondering wat kind of hair should I cut.. should I keep long or short hair? Need to pamper myself after exam.. Now looking at all the dancing classes.. planning to join the pole dance near my work place and the contemporary/ modern dance at yio chu kang there.. tink I will be more interested on tat cause more moves.. more actions.. need more exercises.. getting fatter liao haha.. everyday squeezing my tummy fats.. gain few kg of weight at gambro.. everyday eat, sit, eat, sit.. plus all the handmade cakes muffin cookies etc from my colleague.. everyday eat tibits wang wang.. chocolates.. so well fed at work..

Bonus & Rewards

Yay.. once again it is time for bonus and incentive.. Last year Aug already taken half year de bonus.. So this year bonus for the remaining of the other half year not so much.. I was hoping for another month but don hav.. only got half a month.. But i am happy with my increment.. this year increment is a bit more than x2 of last year de.. Boss say is confidential cnt say.. Though with this increment i am still the lowest paying employee in the company.. so sad.. Feeling lazy liao.. and boring.. haven even reach 3 years in this company yet.. need to wait for a while more.. jia you ba.. next job i must hit 3k de pay.. Exam coming soon.. start of may.. faster finish faster relax and i don have to pay school fees le.. provided i pass my exam.. Jia you Jia you must pass..~~~ This year i bought 4d myself.. won $20.. haha.. well better than nth ba.. Today my left eye keep twitching.. hope is good news.. my senior say left eye twitch means got wealth.. i hope so.. haha.. Dear got a new job..doing project coordinator.. office work.. doing something lik Ivy role.. thought he will nv do office work but still he is doing now.. not bad.. at least now can msg me during work.. not like last time.. with his salary increase.. I was hoping he will contribute more into the shared account.. he say stil got study fee la.. got my ring to buy la.. blah blah blah.. lots of excuses.. Well i will wait till u finish ur study den we say ba.. anyway his boss when interview that time say they planning to expand.. so probably can promote to manager. Joce also got a job le.. Ivy de role also.. she say very busy with the work.. she doing 9 type of drugs.. she say very busy liao.. her side still need to do lik purchasing lik tat.. same lik sam de work also.. all the best to both of them and to me too.. haha..

so boring I need a long break

Hai.. everyday need to go work and study.. feel so sian.. so bored and mentally tired.. feel lik taking a long break before work again.. but I wanted to wait 2 more years.. hai.. don doe la.. need saving also.. ytd lunch after class me and dear go bukit timah food center eat.. saw dor and her bf and her bf de fren.. talking abt girlfriends.. the guy fren lik girl lik tat hua chi de.. now de guys now also gossip lik girls.. just nice saw dor i rmb that need to tell dear i going ktv this coming sat.. so i say dear tis sat i go ktv with them (dor and joce).. den he say orh.. den dor also tell his bf.. tis sat i also go ktv with them (me and joce).. both lik doing report lik tat haha.. so funny.. den me and dear keep having debating and arguing.. den dor say ok la ok la.. eat lol don keep arguing.. den at night we went to to-gather cafe to eat.. their food not bad de wor.. maybe someday I will bring joce there all go eat.. and the ponggol tat side de hong kong cafe also..

quarreling

Wed just quarrel with dear dear.. he so stubborn.. wrong already still don admit.. keep denying and insisting I got no prove.. tinking of all his bad habit and attitude makes me wonder if I can still continue to be with him.. so unhygienic.. I already compromise and sacrifice a lot for him lol.. he also nv.. still so self centered.. only tinking abt what benefits him.. what he wants.. sometimes I feel do stuff for him also not worth it.. when he don reciprocate anyway.. give him so many chance le still also like tat.. hai.. ytd he say he will try again.. also don doe real a not.. everytime also mouth talk no action de.. still don see changes I tink jiu suan le.. I don wan to be always tolerating all his bad habit behavior and attitude.. 6 years of complaining and improvement only lik <=5%.. I also don lik to be always complaining.. but I also cnt always compromise and tolerate forever de ma.. he always can do wat he wan.. I jiu cnt do wat I wan.. he say wat also can.. I say jiu cannot.. everytime also need ppl to push him den got a bit action.. so tiring.. everytime also need to say then will do.. and do also 三分钟热度 de..

sabah padi open water dive

Went to sabah 5 days to take the padi open water dive course.. drank a lot of sea water.. the stupid mask in and out de is my nightmare.. cannot slp at night because of it.. total got 5 dives.. saw some nice fishes lik grouper with the black spots.. we have a red big eye fish.. some butterfly fish and one lionfish I tink tat wat it is called.. I almost hit two of them.. my instructor saw and pull me away.. cause tat fish will sting ppl.. got a few jellyfish sting.. well.. it was not as painful as I tot it will be.. I go snorkelling also will get stung a few times by don doe wat.. just tat this stung will be a bit more painful and u will have red swollen spots on the stung area.. will upload some pictures later on.. my big discovery on this dive are stingrays, sea slug, lionfish and turtle etc..  while swimming past the sea slug on the coral.. the sea slug float away haha.. guess the wind of my flippers make them fly.. anyway got a bad wound on the feet ankle too.. due to the flippers rub too much against my skin.. the skin drop off.. I didnt even notice.. just feel a bit pain on and off.. my instructor saw it bleeding and ask me wat happen den I realise the ankle was bleeding.. 3 days of flipper rubbing.. the skin drop out.. den I put some water and waa it hurts a lot.. den I bath all tat also hurts.. hurts like don doe how many times more than the jellyfish stung.. walk now lik yi kuai yi kuai de.. all the skin trying to heal den I walk it will stretch the skin and hurts..

Anyway my instructor is a friendly ang mo.. was a bit shock when I realise he was my instructor cause normally asian and ang mo a bit hard to click de.. but he is the open minded friendly type de so he seems to click very well with the rest.. well the instructor at sabah all very nice and friendly and helpful de.. not lik the stupid phuket ppl.. all so idiot.. oly help americans ppl cause they tink americans are richer.. money face.. sabah de all not like tat de.. all nice.. I learn this course at diverse borneo.. cheaper price nice instructors.. haha.. my instructor shuai shuai.. saw his email dominicbooth83@gmail.com den I realise their surname weird weird de.. diff I guess.. like my colleague surname is peterson.. I tink peterson still common ba.. surname booth first person I know.. one ting bad is on the first dive he drag me into the water straight away after the skills test all tat.. scare the hell out of me.. I was panicking the ear blocking and all tat.. scary for the first time.. I keep tinking I am going to drown.. after a few times it feels ok.. but still scary.. the skills especially the on off mask ting makes me panic.. the first time I did I drank a lot of water.. breath through my nose almost drown.. I am supposed to do in the water.. lucky it wasnt tat deep.. like maybe 2-6m ba.. I swim upwards to the top for air.. while I actually have the respirator.. well not used to breathing through my mouth.. after tat I use the pinch nose method and so much better but still choked on water a few times.. didnt know so much skills need to do for this course... but glad tat I finish it.. nightmare gone.. yay.. dear ask me to go for advance.. I say siao.. I also haven get used to diving yet.. he always 3 min re du de.. after a while jiu forget liao lol..

This sabah trip is for our 6 years anniversary.. so happy 6 years anniversary to us.. did my first time diving.. scary scary diving.. hahaha.. this trip also I pay half for dear birthday.. haha.. dear bought me h2o set.  he say treat as 6 years anni present.. since he say so.. not going to pay him back.. haha.. bought some fresh seafood back.. we have the sea cucumber fresh big big de.. den some fishes.. and big prawns.. the seafood shop uncle say y I everyting also don doe how to cook de.. come on I oly 23 lol.. how would I know I am not a chef.. my mum don cook so many diff type of fishes right.. u say steam I know la.. not lik I know what fish need to cook using what method de ma.. if I so clever I will be chef liao.. not chef tat y ask ma.. we went fish night market there eat.. damn nice.. ate scallop veg and bbq fish oly rm 32.. just the prawn more ex there.. prawns there rm 45.. took a lot of photo with my piano black instant camera.. yay at last got the chance to use it.. last year went phuket forgot to bring cause i rushing to dear hse the nite before.. fabian cnt wait to long to drive me over so I rush and forgot.. this time nv forgot.. yay.. give away a few pieces to other ppl also.. well suan la ba.. I am a generous girl.. haha..

same feeling as this..

正当爱很不容易, 而我遇见了你。很感谢你给我在一
起的勇气。或许爱很不容易才能够痊愈。我却因为你找回了信心。

Tat day one of my colleague ask me if I am affected by my parents divorce.. and I don trust or believe in relationship.. well.. I guess I am sort of affected ba.. I don trust guys tat much.. my colleague say well u still seems to be ok.. at least u still try to go into a relationship.. I tink through her words and realise true.. I am trying.. apart from family background.. apart from past failed relationship.. I am still trying and hoping to find the right one.. which also means i haven give up and because of him.. it is sort of slowly recovering.

kick off meeting malacca

Kick off meeting at malacca.. so shiok.. got rm 100 buck allowance for food and transport.. don need to work can go shopping.. meals provided.. if everytime lik tat jiu hao.. got free meal plus money to spend.. first day reach there so hungry.. not enough time for lunch.. in the end team building tat time ate oly ice cream and goreng pisah tat I found on the way.. den dinner we wanted to eat assam laksa.. but thurs so all close.. we can eat Portuguese food but they don wan.. so we ate hard rock instead.. second day we got meeting.. so boring.. meeting whole day.. sian.. director caught me slping.. but don care.. really very tired leh.. having headache tat day also.. den at nite we went jonker street again.. walk walk shop shop.. introduce my colleague the panty roses.. they bought for their wives.. haha.. third day free and easy.. we went to eat chendol plus the laksa.. shiok.. den shopping buy souvenir buy famous amos cookies plus local products.. went to the mdm goh pineapples tart there.. intro to my colleagues.. the aunty gave me a box of wife bisuits for free.. tink its for my introduction fee.. haha.. well.. my dear hate the uncle.. he say the uncle attitude not gd.. the aunty attitude better.. anyway mui lee nv go cause sick.. I alone one room.. lucky the room is connecting de.. so connecting with kyle and jasmine.. haha.. gd.. they morning call me everyday.. not a bad trip la.. but still prefer if the meeting is only half day..

Anyway day meet my dear.. supposed to study in the end we slp haha.. dear say he love me.. I say I love him too.. he say he love me more I say I love him most.. he say he love me mega most.. lol.. sounds lik the rapunzel movie.. the so call good mother and rapunzel de speech.. haha..

Valentine Day

Today is valentine day.. me and dear de 6th valentine day.. today dear say don doe whether I would like the present he buy.. well.. no matter what present.. is the sincerity that counts.. no matter what present I also will like.. handmake de even priceless cause no body have except me.. haha.. this year I design our own memories together and put on the cups.. have it delivered to dear house without informing him. Dear got a shock.. thought someone give him some black curse cause the cups are black.. so funny.. hu would want to curse my dear dear? The design would only be shown when u pour hot water.. I haven see it yet.. guess tomolo I will be able to see it.. wonder my design on the cup will be nice a not..  today dear give me rose again.. but this time the rose can be with me forever de.. it will not wither.. is a gold rose.. just when I was tinking of asking dear to buy that.. but I didnt cause it is too fragile.. squash it jiu out of shape le.. didnt know that even when I didnt say dear also bought.. really is xin ling xiang tong.. just few days ago.. my rose plant was botak.. no leaves at all.. I ask my mum.. did u water it? She say yes.. I didnt believe her so I water myself.. now it is with lots of leaves.. all new a bit red leaves.. hope it will have roses soon.. haven check yet though today..

My design for the cups.. will compare when I see original



My gold rose

life

不知为了什么我这几天的心情都好低落。好像得忧郁症是的。哈哈开玩笑。今天老师说了大概20分钟才下课。他说每一天都是他的生日。为什么?长话短说就是今天不知道明天会发生什么事所以每天都要过的开心没有遗憾。这个道理我早就领悟到了。你今天活着明天就可能死了。这事领我想到我一直都在想的事。我是一个没有耐心的人。就说成绩吧!我最讨厌就是等成绩。喜欢一考完就知道拿几分。我喜欢早知道答案。我喜欢知道结果。有时我会想。要是今天我死了。我也甘愿因为我觉得已经够了。我有疼我的妈妈。男朋友。和朋友。如果有的选择死或者活着我会选择死。因为我害怕以后的事。人不可能什么都有。爱情亲情友情。我不想有一天我会失望或伤心。尤其是对爱情的事。可能我中毒太深。我妈和身边认识的人的下场让我没有信心。所以为了不收伤害我会选择放弃。我对什么事都开朗也有信心唯独这个没有。我不想有一天伤心和失望。所以选择放弃。要是我还没有死那我就会想要知道。不管开心或不开心的事都不喜欢被隐瞒。真矛盾。又害怕伤心又不喜欢被隐瞒。真的麻烦。到现在我从没有觉得后悔决定和他在一起。因为如今我觉得很开心也幸福。虽然有时还是会因为他而哭。但是多数是开心的。我希望有一天我流眼泪不是因为伤心而是感动或开心。贪心一点。最好开心的眼泪多过伤心的。还有我不想有一天因为生病而痛苦的死。所以我会常常希望像童话的吸血鬼一样不会生病而死。而且童话的爱情故事都是永恒的不会变的。我不喜欢陈经拥有。我喜欢永远拥有。要不就拥有一辈子要不就不要拥有过。

最近常常看天上的星星和月亮。让我想到那时在他婆婆家一起看到的星星。真美丽。真想有许多记得住快乐美丽的回忆。

现在的心情就象是放弃他的心情一样。拿走后心情不好是正常的。现在为什么心情不好就不知道。那天是09-10-2012我还留住卡为了知道日子。所然不后悔但是还是会想起。要是没有拿走应该在一起有半年了吧。

next level

Hai.. I feel that it is getting boring.. studying is boring.. work is boring.. relationship is boring.. Study.. always boring.. hope I can finish my degree with honors.. need more discipline.. need more control.. how the hell am I going to get my degree with honor. Grrrr.. next level.. if I pass.. should I go for a cpa?? Most likely the ans should be a yes.. but probably need some break time first.. we'll see if the time is up as to when will I continue my cpa.. Working.. another boring thing.. im waiting for the new of moving to baxter.. the new experience and event that I look forward to.. although I am happy here.. but its too constant and getting bored.. even though I wanted to stay for few year before proceeding to a next job.. but still hai.. I an aiming for some management job but can I get one is unknown.. currently this change of moving to baxter at least can excite me a little.. since I am doing my work to fast have extra time on my hand which I do not know wat else I can do.. hoping this change of environment can really help to motivate to stay as I wish too.. maybe I am really the type tat can stay in one place for long. . I will get to bored.. Relationship.. constant and stagnant. . Becoming 100% Boring and uninteresting.. I really hope to move to the next level.. don wan to talk abt money and all that nonsense.. not sure if I am too eager to move to the next level to stay together or just he is to uninterested to move the relationship to next level.. I need some new thing to make it exciting. Without money jiu cannot move to next level meh? I have already think of all possible ways but still no actions taken.. how long can this relationship be constant before I burst out of boredom? Wat else can I do to prevent this constant.. we been together for 6 years.. few years of constant is really boring me out.. it just as easy as just move together stay together morning wake up able to see him wake up with a kiss not a msg one.. at nite slp able to get a real kiss too.. how hard is that? Why is there so many issues with that? Going for trip overseas islike the best ting everytime liao.. cause it is the only time that can fulfil what I want.. but is only a short tern ting.. sometimes I really wonder how can a couple been in 8-10years relationship constant.. before moving to next level.. what do they do to make it exciting? I am only in 6 and I am really bursting.. Conclusion.. maybe I just cnt stand being constant doing same stuff without new event.. without new stuff.. for work and for relationship.. I need someting new badly.. new event new memories.. new someting.. whatever that can be exciting..

CNY & valentine day

Its Chinese New Year time.. received hong bao.. This year Hong Bao seems to increase in amount.. Just when i was complaining to Wei Lin about our family de rate always remain the same.. But still overall not much difference though.. this fri going to Ka wei house to celebrate the new year. Hope wont be the same as how it ended last year.. Just a mahjong game.. why are people so sore loser.. this month Feb will be a busy month.. going kick off meeting at malacca.. a bit boring about the place though but going with diff batch of people diff experience.. Why cannot go further place? So stingy.. haha.. Next mon meeting joce they all.. haha.. still hanging out.. 7-8 years of friends.. nice.. rbc say go to her house.. Then will be valentine day liao.. wonder got what plans anot.. how would we be celebrating valentine this year? looking forward.. My family got a few cousin married liao.. give birth le also.. now going to have another baby nephew.. Next year two of my other cousin is getting married.. THis year my company got three getting married.. three hong bao to give.. big bomb.. Exam are coming in May.. this year is last year le.. hope i pass my exam and best with a honor degree.. not sure if i can get a honor.. Jia You ba.. Not sure this year will move location a not.. since we going to baxter side now.. no news.. but bonus will be in apr.. yay.. feeling a bit bored at work le.. nth much changes.. every day do about the same ting.. but i will stay for a few more years.. cause i am happy working here with nice colleagues.. always got free new clothes too..

our memories

I found out that I have not been posting often.. some details of my life and memories are left out.. I read through my past post.. help me rmb some.. first valentine 2009 with my dear was at the hotpot at marina square.. dear bought a bouquet of ferrero rocher with one rose.. known as wei yi.. on my first birthday celebration with dear should be 2008.. we ate at maison with oreo cheese cake.. on my second valentine 2010 it was with new year.. dear bought me an anklet.. well tat anklet is lose and missing le.. anniversary of our first year mar 2009 was at the beach.. dear make sushi with wasabi.. not knowing i don eat wasabi.. my second birthday 2009 was not celebrated with dear cause he isnt around.. cnt rmb why le.. either army or penang trip with his friends tat time.. third and fourth fifth not posted.. trying to recall.. if I am not wrong my birthday 2011 was with my nhg friends and dear surprise me with paradise fruit tart.. 2012 valentine was celebrated again I tink at marina.. whereby I got a rose bouquet too.. last year 2013 anniversary we went to phuket to celebrate.. this year we will be going sabah.. year 2012 birthday was when I am 21st.. we had a birthday celebration together with celebrating dor birthday.. it wasat sentosa hard rock hotel.. such a nice place.. this birthday present was a sponsorship of $500 cash from dear dear.. tat was also the day whereby I forgot my clothes when bathing.. was waiting for dor to come out from her shower and help me go out take.. when someone came in with a bag of clothes saying my bf request to pass it to me.. haha.. I tink dear always used to my blur sotong way.. 2013 valentine was not celebrated.. or celebrated with anniversary for the phuket trip.. 2013 birthday.. dear give me the dancing star earrings.. haha.. what would I get for valentine is unknown this year.. haha.. anniversary was going sabah and was a present from me for dear 2014 birthday present..

year 2013

Time pass so fast.. now is year 2013 aug le.. start working full time also got a few years le.. working in gambro almost 2 years le.. hehe.. so lucky got another bonus this month.. not much but better than nth.. good time to have join the company.. normally obe year once de bonus.. cause got bought over tat y got one more extra.. next time de bonus will be under baxter le.. say bye bye to gambro soon..

Tis two years I have been going overseas quite a multiple times.. go bangkok, phuket.. mostly malaysia.. sibu, desaru, johor.. genting.. This year first time when to dear de malaysia kampong.. there de star so nice.. haha.. went to climb these mountain.. all stairs.. when I come down my legs shaking automatically.. dear still ask me go again.. I then don wan.. one ting I miss is pancake.. the pancake so nice.. although corn very little but cheap.. myr 30 cents also.. nth much to do.. but got a farm and a big disgusting pervert dog.. haha..
Got a shock.. imagine u took a nap when u wake up saw a flat big grasshopper ting lying beside u.. and u tinking u probably squash it while slping.. feel a bit disgusting but also a bit sad for the insect.. they also say insects are ancestors.. den I would be considered squashed one of dear ancestor le..

Went phuket with dear.. so wonderful just the two of us for 3-4 days.. haha.. got the same experience as dor.. the lizard drop down when I opening the door.. scare me.. slimy slimy de run away.. eek.. den dear got a bad sunburn and there goes my 3 hour.. hai.. he lol.. almost so stubborn like to act tough.. I wont sunburn de.. in the end burn lik lobster.. haha..every year should have such two ppl trip again.. beside dear dear..

Oct I going hokkaido lol and medan with my mum.. lots of seafood waiting for me.. must eat alaska crab there.. hehe.. fresh.. hope is a gd trip..

These few days got quarrel with dear dear.. don doe y just got the feel of being alone.. don doe is because relationship dan hua le or I change le.. last time I always tink tat without dear dear cnt live.. now no more these type of tinking le.. maybe cause I qi guan or give up le or wat.. everytime I got tis fire burning den dear is like the cold water splash down jiu no more liao.. so many times until probably immune liao.. everytime msg also not much reply.. connection like not as strong.. and feel like with dear jiu good but without him jiu not much of the connection le.. not miss him tat much when I don see him le.. talk to him also don listen to me de.. so stubborn.. talk until I also don care liao.. lazy to say.. also now not much got a romance feeling le.. going to 6 years I tink tis is wat they call Dan hua le ba.. don doe how to explain.. but I don always stick to him anymore le also.. he also wont stick to me so no longer stick to him le.. hope there is new occasion or event tat can cheer and boost my morale ba..

updating life

I am going to be 21 soon.. working in a medical company as accounts executive.. studying part time in degree in accounts and finance.. exams are coming in about 4 months time and i have yet to study anything..Although Accounts is my thing but workingis still tedious.. study you can make 1 month holiday 1 week holidays through out the year plus public holiday.. working only have 14 days leave and public holiday.. some still only have 7 days leave.. work 5 days rest two days.. study also the same what.. some more study only 6-7 hours.. People who live up in rich family jiu hao lol.. wan car got car wan play can play don work still got money.. happy jiu fail exam also not they pay.. ppl with only well to do family jiu so arrogant.. like they own the world.. got money then? got money don work lol.. if you can don work then u can be arrogant all you want.. only little money eat in pepper lunch eat still say big words.. waa i got 10 gf and then prove what? u are a womaniser? how proud is that? ppl will only be disgusted with you.. or even worse curse you..

Today i face the same ting once again.. bank deducting charges from my account.. so piss off.. pay u peanuts for interest and deduct many many times more for charges.. Banks are always like that.. deducted money that can pay u back by interest slowly slowly by years.. deduct liao u say they say ya they deduct give u a stupid reason and say is the policy.. We have told initial when opening account that it like that when they did not.. Then how? will you rmb years back who attend to you when opening account? Even if you rmb who to prove that they did not say? this time is even worse.. deduct liao and then say cnt waive.. other bank don have only u have and you say is your bank policy.. is in the term and conditions.. then for what? seriously for wat do I have to use your card.. i use ur card u deduct charges.. i use other bank nv deduct..

My mum is just ridiculous.. like ppl to make fun of her and she feel so proud and happy.. wonder if her mind is working or a screw is lose in her mind.. Cousin comes and see our house when our house is in a mess..and some more she is like introducing.. see this the sofa so many clothes.. see the bed also so messy blah blah blah.. seriously very proud meh?

reblog

Its been so long since I blog.. Many ting need to update now.. I start working at company Gambro as account executive.. Boss good company good colleague good.. It totally lik working in heaven compared to working at NUH.. Boss crazy and like heart unbalance.. First time I heard some one scold you just say that you don cry when get scolded.. First time got people like to see other cry.. and first time I see people also don doe how old liao use paper clip to clip hair.. haha..

Secondly I am studying at SIM university and pursuing accounts.. yes.. and my exams are coming.. Hope I pass and I better do cause I dont wan to waste money retake..waaa.. must pass must pass..

I met new friends at university and after exam I going to genting with them.. haha..

Now with my bf is already 4 years.. got a new stuff toy after so long.. my bf buy de.. a very cute stitch.. my bf got a bike also.. tat y drive me to yishun dam.. so happy.. moon so round and big and by luck we saw fireworks.. we are always so lucky.. haha.. but he said something that I dont like to hear.. he ask me to build a little wall against him.. he say everyone will change.. hu doe what will happen in the future.. true enough but makes me go wondering many many things.. hope it does not mean wat I think and wat I tink does not happen ba..

Hai.. its time to do my housework been super busy and no time to do..

Jia You for exam..

disappointment

SO disappointed with my dear dear.. told him so many times lik talking to the wall.. he nv listen.. stubborn.. make mi angry oly.. make mi wait for him to reply even though he doe i hates it.. say he slping nap also cn say rite.. go out fren with also nv reply.. at home also reply late.. at work also nv reply.. since he cnt be bothered, from now on, i also cannot be bothered le.. tired just repeating myself.. so I just sms him only when i tink i am free.. not going to tell mi when i nap also.. just let him wait for his sms..

last nite found out tat he isnt honest with mi also.. though to some ppl its a small matter but i hate liars.. no matter big or small.. he pretend he is slping while he is watching show.. hu doe how long he has been doing tat pretense.. his excuse was i knew u will be angry so wan slp late tat time just sms early first.. wow.. wat gd excuse.. as long as he tink i will get angry den he got the reason to lie? Den next time i also do the same lol.. i go out with fren or wat late slp late den i just lie lol.. knew he will be angry ma.. den next time go out with gal or fren late go home also will lie and say reach home le lol.. so say go out with oly guy fren.. sometimes he go out with fren already didnt say truth le.. at first say go out with guy den in the end also got gal.. say oly when i found out and ask.. den say is last min decision.. if i nv find out den don nid say lol.. off also nv say off when de.. until i found out ask den say.. next time i den don believe wat he say..

last week someting happen not just embarassment, plus devastating and frustration.. I really really really wan to send him to hell.. stab him straight in his heart and nv c him again.. jail is not enough for ppl hu are pervert.. someting that i feel lik having a anmesia and nv wan to rmb no matter wat it takes.. someting i will nv forget.. and i hope tat he die a horrible death.. best got his eyes dug out.. u cn nv imagine so it will feels.. his eyes just staring at u while u looking at him and he doesnt feels apologetic at all.. don c him take any action fast enough but oly do it slowly.. saying he didnt do on purpose.. ya rite.. hu will believe.. physotic pervert.. I nv nv nv wan to c him in my next next next and next life.. though not gd to post here as if someone c it he may feel very sad but i cnt be bothered.. ppl lik him should get torture terribly in hell.. and he can still lie through his teeth and say someting tat even dumb ppl doe it isnt true.. I really cnt explain my frustration.. it makes my blood boil and agitated even to just type it..

I cant save my hamsters

Up til now, I don tink my hamster died a peaceful death.. They die by illness, injuries and accident.. And all I could do is to stand there and watch them suffer.. Like my fav one, mommy ham ham with her infected eye.. lost her sight for a while.. suffering even after a surgery.. and nth tat i could do to save her.. Sometimes I wonder if we keep her better in better bedding and better condition she wont have it.. Everytime it just come to someting call money.. which means mi frustrated.. If cannot keep a pet in good condition then don keep one.. Father died because of a fight and he too suffered from his injured leg.. I wonder it is fracture or what.. But he is strong.. and still he die suffering with nth I can help to save.. Then there is female kid escape from the cage.. and accidents here and there choke to dealth by the house opening, squash and babies born not even lived a day..
however, one die last sunday.. even gender is unsure but i guess its male.. and died with mi around.. and its my fault.. He was fighting with another one or bully and beaten.. his squeak and shout but I took no notice and pay no attention til it was too late.. If i went to take a glance, just one glance, he wont be suffering till death and wont even die.. I will be able to save him.. But I didnt and it too late and I wasnt be able to help him after tat.. oly able to watch him suffer.. his face covered with red blood and blood and cuts on his back.. and his limping and not being able to move much.. couching himself together.. But he is still breathing.. I tot he may be able to survive cause they recover fast.. but I tink the injuries are too serious for him and I don even doe wat to do for his bleeding wounds.. I cant help at all to make him better.. and I wasnt even given the chance to nurse him back to health although not sure how, I was planning to stand by his side and protect him.. but he died before tat..
So now I just hope tat one of them get her eyes recover totally.. and the rest died peacefully and without accident or illness.. All those who died from accidents and illnesss and none tat I can save.. Tis will be in memory of them every single one.. never forgotten..

relation-tired

relationship really can make u tired.. physically and mentally.. Make u doesnt wan to care more abt anything.. even tired to continue a quarrel or argument.. maybe its the work of being upset.. make mi feel hate.. making my heart not stable.. making mi don doe to hope or not to hope.. make mi wonder over and over again abt it.. make mi wonder how long cn it last.. make mi wonder how long it can stay on.. having to repeat mistakes over and over.. having to getting hurt again and again.. make mi tink wat is the point..
however, the most irritating part is what to do? one side gd one side bad.. gd can be very gd while bad can be untolerable.. seriously, wat can be done? staying on and tolerating hoping that it will soon be over and past and gd days will cme cause we all know fresh in the mind tat the same ting will still repeats.. being awake and keep it shut.. being awake will tell u tis time is gone but when will the next cme? and whether I could still continue when it comes? how long u wan to tolerate.. in future there is still going to be prob much worse than this.. must well give up.. while keeping it shut will say since its so long liao just continue.. u doe tat tis is wat u wanted.. just a little tolerance will do.. tis kind of ting confirm will matter de wat.. without it relationship wont get stronger..
but still y cant it stop repeating? does it really make it stronger.. some how to me i don c it stronger.. maybe it does but i just don c it.. i just c that it makes ppl feel sick, feel irritated and feel much worse hurt than previous when it comes.. every single time it come it adds on and heavier to carry and continue.. there is one way to stop and i hope i don cme to tat way because i don wan to.. so pls.. pls stop pushing.. its already very close.. just a bit more and i feel tat i'm falling apart or maybe i'm already start to fall apart.. so pls.. i'm already pushing it backward to retain.. but y keep pushing forward.. stop pushing forward..

Happy Birthday

today is my birthday.. yay.. celebrate with my best best best fren dor.. went to bugis to buy my pants and shop a few other things.. Then go plaza sing to buy skirt and dress.. lucky for mi before tat i didnt buy the dress now gt 50 percent off.. wow!!! after tat actually still wan go pasir ris catch guppy de.. ut dor say she very tired wan to go find her bf.. so too bad i cme back home eat my mum cook for mi de two egg mee suan.. haha den she ask mi wan go buy cake.. rush down to nex to buy a cake from swiss bake hazelnut crunch.. not bad but wonder whether it is the same as sam birthday tat cake.. mum say not very nice still prefer the angie the choice.. hai.. and go yoga late after tat..

sad ting today is dear nv celebrate with mi.. and he oly coming back on the sunday.. sob sob.. so long.. wonder whether will miss his birthday too.. his present still waiting for him to cme back and buy together.. waiting for Sam dear dear's home cook birthday treat.. haha.. so contradicting.. hope he faster cme back but don wan schol reopen to cme fast.. which falls on the next day.. lol!! hai..

irresponsible owners

Dear pet owners, think whether u or ur family treat ur pets well.. Pets have emotions too.. Put urself in their shoes and c if u r happy when someone treat u the same way as how u or ur family treat them.. if not, please do not torture them or end up giving their lives away.. Don't buy pet if u cnt be responsible or treat them well.. Save animals from torturing and cruelty or may u be torture by ur revenge pets..

some owner or their family are so cruel.. they tink that pets are just some doll or toy and start hitting them when they are angry.. or cause them to an accidental or purposely kill by u.. their lives are not for u to waste it.. If u cnt be careful around them and treat them well dont buy pets.. else u will get what u deserve soon..

malaysia

first time go malaysia without my mum and without my school.. but with my bf and frens.. haha.. went in go eat bah ku teh.. very nice.. but the aunty bluff mi.. say put mix inside the soup but i don c one piece of kidney in the soup.. but still nice.. and she forgot out you tiao.. we also forgot.. until after finish le then rmb my you tiao gone.. then go beside de shop bought a cuttlefish.. those liu yu.. after that we go holiday inn buy couple tees.. at last got our couple tees and the sizes.. tat shop de is print for u de.. but nid wait a while den cn get.. bought one cookie monster shirt for my baby nephew also.. very cheap de.. lose to dear dear in sissors paper stone.. so i took the one tat is nv eat rice oly wash bowl.. dear take the oly eat rice nv wash bowl.. so sad..

fishing

today fishing trip in all bad luck got a little gd luck.. reach there not a while rain till very heavy.. although i lik it better than sunny.. haha.. to me still gd luck.. just hated the wet part.. after that, we caught a big crab.. so many crab net there, no one caught while we accidentally caught one big de using fish rod.. haha.. contradicting.. rain so heavy tat the further ship very blur.. like ghost ship.. eat my fav seafood today.. stingray and sotong.. tomolo going malaysia.. finally without my mum with my friends not for school.. excited, looking forward..

life now

tues went to c my aby nephew.. so cute..
1st watch abt 3 hours of hi 5 barney etc with him.. haha.. so sian
2nd walk 5 storey of stairs.
3rd cry cause no hi 5 watch.. mum don allow him watch
4th slp while an ant crawl on my stomach.. lol

Ytd went out with dear.. watch harry potter and eat some hong kong cafe.. couldnt slp well last nite also.. hai.. mum nag abt covering my head with a blanket.. but i lik.. haha.. today schol sian.. overslept by 15 min.. but nt late.. haha..

Guess which pic is the lastest and which is the youngest

holiday

holiday again.. rearing fishes.. goldfish for now.. killed many although but don wan to give up..
today went robinson buy stuff.. hai starting my saving plan.. spend too many le.. spend more than earn.. went ktv.. eat ex food, tis and tat.. go prawning.. 1 h catch one.. sad cause raining.. tuition.. am happy cause have improve relationship with the prob boi.. as least not the hard way.. someting call chi ruan bu chi ying.. One ting tat i still don doe.. my career.. hai after poly don doe wat to do.. always one step at a time.. no uni den work ba.. that the ting.. or maybe just work den after that study.. cause no studying mood also.. maybe work is a better way but definitely not sales line.. nv..

failure

ytd went out with dear dear.. first stop is potong pasir.. wan to eat joce recommend de prata.. however sad it is close.. so on my way to go chinatown for another recommendation cheese bread, I saw a small kodomo dragon crawling on the grass up the slope.. sadly didnt get to take a pic.. after tat, went chinatown could not get my cheese bread.. sold out le.. but get the famous yong tau fu.. dear dear queue.. haha.. so unlucky de.. everyting i wan also don hav.. after tat go orchard take loreal watch also cnt.. office hours.. not open.. got a iron for my hse..

sat went out also.. wanted to catch guppies at pasir ris.. instead went fish spa.. cause catch guppies trip fail.. close liao.. hai.. we walk all the way from the inter to the fish ting.. so far.. but there de fish spa cheap.. 30 min oly 10 dollar.. but there e fish big big de at first put in so itchy haha.. dear also don dare put in.. haha.. dear scared of fishes.. nibbing his feet.. he say one whole swarm of black black the fishes at ur leg very disgusting.. haha.. last 10 min i put my hand in also.. cn feel lik they biting mi.. werid but fun..

wow wow

3 months since i updated it.. wow.. busy with stuff now slow internet at home, proj, tuition playing with my baby newphew.. one year plus walking already but still blabbering.. talking kiddo language.. today staying at my ah yi hse.. tomolo wake up cn play with him le haha..

1st update - moving hse back to hougang or maybe already did
2nd update - proj in a rush trying to finish up ASAP.. cause the ending is near
3rd update - ut not bad but tink second ut for financial will sucks.
4th update - opening a hse warming party.. wish it go well
5th update teaching a pri 4 attitude boy which is getting on my nerves doesnt doe how to help him..
6th update - two other pri 2 is still not bad girl works slow motion.. or too slow motion and guy english sucks.. wish I helps..
7th update - pri 3 boy too talkative distracting others maybe all are..
8th update pri 2 girl at yishun.. smart hate studying i mean hu don most does.. her present she wanted water color pencils?? and 24 in quantity..
9th update - dear just told mi nite for the second time..
10th update - fyp team sucks.. proj sucks.. wish them could buck up and pls pls don drag mi.. i did a lot for it..
11th update - dear maybe going brunei for 1 YEAR.. if so will miss him.. hai no way to decide of course i wan mi but going may allow him hav better future.
12th update - worse face to face fight fall last sat.. bad quarrel yap.. lucky it ended fast..
13th update - joce birthday coming.. wat should we do?? birthday party?? presents??
14th update - going get a video camera for myself soon.. waa. nice.. cuase i bought a tv and free camera... wahaha.. although some what nt tat useful to mi la.. when do i take photos??

some thinking

today I thinking that some kind of tin or sometimes, not knowing abt the truth is better than knowing or worst pretending tat u doesnt doe, not sad and nt hurt.. at least if u doesnt doe, u feel much happier.. its always better than feeling hurt like a hole at will not close up or even if it doesthere will still be stitches.. nv knowing when it will be tear apart again.. always fearing of it tearing apart.. not knowing wont make u lose ur happiness make u pessimistic.. it makes u still cheerful lik u originally was.. but tat oly if u nv had known the truth even til u r dead.. so u wont feel hurt as u nv de tat wat u have seen and known was actually just a false image.. however we doe that the truth always get reveal no matter how and no matter wat so wat for hiding it when it will still be reveal somehow and someday.. it the dumbest tink i tink they do.. or worst dare to do, dare to lie but do not dare to admit.. the most coward and intolerable ting in my life.. so therefore as a warning, whoever hurt mi deep or lie to mi, will be drive out of my life and nt given another chance.. no pitiness and nt even getting close to mi.. cause tat wat u do to mi and tat wat u will receive.. don say it cold hearted cause i don tink they have too.. it wat they deserve..

scholing

schol start le.. yay.. new sems new fren.. no more long slping time.. sian.. one day in schol ytd i overslp late til very very late.. the faci after class still ask mi y late.. today go wrong class start schol two day also late damn sian.. wish the faci don mark late lol.. every class tat i have gt someone same class as mi.. at least still better.. facijust said nt going mark late.. yes..