penang

this year anniversary trip is at Penang.. Relax, eat, slp and shop.. Dear got me a bouquet of nice flowers with a meh meh.. Is cheaper there.. If everyday also lik tat relax jiu hao.. Food is nice but what I learn is never order crab in MY.. Definitely not Nice.. The beef kuay teow and curry mee with zhu xue gao damn delicious.. If sg have jiu hao.. Haha.. Well if everyday lik tat after a while will bored also.. 

Job update.. Irony.. I resign and then the hr emcourage me to stay.. Not long after I withdraw resignation, I receive news that hr resign.. Lol.. Well.. Didnt quit my job in the end.. This month having bonus.. No diff from last year though.. Counting down to this fri to get the money.. Wahaha.. Time for shopping?

House.. Getting my house only 3-5 years later.. Thats long.. Will be in marsiling.. slightly regret Mainly Cause my cousin all moving north east then I move to north west.. Lik Wth.. 

Family update.. My baby niece is back from US.. Cute adorable petite and boyish.. Haha.. comparing to my another baby newphew size.. same age size divide by around 1.5?

Right in pink my baby NIECE.. Always mistaken as boy boy.. My cousin say wear pink plus pink stroller, ppl still say waa ur ah boy very cute.. Haha.. Eyes ta stamp.. Left in white the baby nephew same age.. Boy in blue, the grow up nephew.. Bro of the girl.. Will disturb And elbow the sleeping sis and act 'mummy, mei mei wake up liao' in order to play with her.. Haha I tink kids are like tat.. I do that too when I was young.. Haha..  today was showing my colleague my niece and nephew photo.. She ask me u lik kids hor.. Faster go have one.. I say lik.. Kids are fun to play.. But need to teach not easy.. they are not lik toys.. Fun to play but once born cnt play liao throw or donate.. I see some parents who only can make love make babies. But don know how to teach.. Their kids turn out disaster.. And still some make a lot despite unable to teach.. Sometimes I wonder some Parents that I see personality so lousy.. how to teach their kids.. So if I want to have kids.. Make sure im mature enough to teach and nurture them.. Personality is very important.. 

envy

Some thing just cannot see.. See liao only make u envious.. hai.. What's past already past.. Cant bring back time.. Message to myself.. Learn to appreciate what u have.. Don keep envy other people.. One dream down, focus to make the rest happen.. =)

time to change job

Im so bored.. Tink it is time to change job.. Nth in this job interest me now.. Plus the benefits sucks.. So boring.. Time to change a higher pay job.. Looking for job now.. Praying and hoping I will find a good pay high job.. Mum just resign from her job too.. 2 months notice period if I wan to change job.. Super idiot kind of policy.. Hai.. Well don hav a choice.. Saying goodbye to this company soon.. Hopefully within 3 months.. Though I may miss my seniors and my colleagues.. But.. We can still be friends.. Can still go out.. Haha.. Hopefully after I left can still stay in touch.. Pity my senior.. After I left she will be damn busy.. Taking over my stuff also.. On one hand I hope got someone taking over me will be better or same as me.. Can help everyone and my senior.. On the other hand it will means that I am just the same as others.. No diff in capability.. Hai so contradicting.. One hand wan to prove my capability.. On the other hand wan someone that can help my senior and my cs colleague.. Contradicting.. Still wish me good luck in finding my next job.. Excited plus anxious.. Bit of worried too..

fed up with her

Today I wake up and see someting.. Make me super fed up.. Does older ppl mean they are more stupid and brainless.. She put my pot of soil with in a bag of other stuff.. Yes.. Maybe she wan to save space or just wan to pack my stuff.. But use some brain la.. Now all my stuff are stain with soil.. Lucky is just jacket shield.. If it is clothes I seriously going to scream at her.. I already wanted to scream at her and ask if she got brain a not.. Who puts soil with clothes..

My Birthday

Its my birthday again.. Am 23 years old.. Waiting for my bf currently to come oved and cook steak for me.. Haha.. My handmake birthday treat from dear dear.. Just sit there and be serve.. This year I lost my dear first year buy for me de necklace.. So sad worst part don know where I drop it.. Hai.. So memorable de ting also lost.. This year dear bought me another necklace to replace the new one.. Is diamond star necklace.. Sort of match my present for last year.. I choose it myself so its confirm very.nice.. Haha.. Dear say this will be my birthday and valentine day present hehe.. This month I bought watch, belt, wallet as dear dear de birthday plus christmas present.. Dear give me de present is manicure nail polish set.. Haha.. Gian that since last year liao..

bali trip

Dear: why u so long never update on blog..
Me: got a while nv update liao.. Recently got nth to post leh.. No event and no holiday.. Dear: laugh.. Where got no holiday?
Me: where hav.. When?
Dear: we just went to bali.. Have such a unforgettable memory..
Me: ya hor.. When we go ar?
Dear: cant imagine u already forget.. We just went in sep..
Me: oh.. Haha

So now I updating bali trip.. Went for hot spring.. Is lik soaking in just hot water.. Don feel spring at all.. There is nice food though.. We ate the crispy pork skin.. So fantastic.. Ate crisy duck also and many many nice indonesian food.. Didn't bought much stuff back to sg.. The villa is so shiok.. Two bedroom, onr private swimming pool and jacuzzi.. Too bad my mum is there haha else got our own private space.. Sunset dinnet is so nice and wonderful and the dolphin watching.. Wow.. We brought our gopro.. So can see the dolphin underwater diving.. Nice.. Someting bad abt this trip.. I make my mum cry.. Why? Because she qian ma.. Bath finish jiu say y ppl bath so slow.. Say we take our own sweet time.. When we didnt.. The stupid driver also another one.. Useless.. Don doe how to plan.. Keep bringing us to those tourist expensive until siao de area.. Wan go eat de location nv go bring us to other location.. Then we not scare not enough money.. Then my mum still there nagging and nagging y u nv do lik that.. U should lik tat when all done has already been done.. Already irritated still add her stupid oil to fire.. Get scolded already then cry.. Still need me to go and please her.. I told her she better don follow her friend de footsteps else no body will wan to go overseas with her any more.. In the end.. I think everyone still enjoy the trip.. Will I go again? Maybe not in near future..

Colleague outing - Pork Knuckles

Today going to eat pork knuckles at Raffles Place with my colleagues.. We have doing a lot of activites and outing etc before moving to new office.. At new office they have yoga on Tue and zumba on Thurs. Free of Charge. So good. Then can dismiss early at like 4.30 to go there for the classes.. Damn shiok.. and still dismiss at 6pm.. one of the nice perks of this integration.
This week got cramps all over.. Tue i went Yoga, then wed play Basketball and thurs go belly dancing.. Wed me and dear met an ah ma in the lift very old le.. the ah ma keep saying she 80 plus liao.. old liao.. going to die liao.. just waiting for death only.. u hear le also feel sad.. she say she scare don doe when is her turn as her neighbour just pass away.. One moment u are just talking to them.. the next moment they are gone.. of course they will feel frighten..
Currently got a lot of new about airplanes crash again.. What wrong with the planes nowadays.. innocent ppl are dying or missing.. I saw a post online.. This 15 year old girl is like me.. living with only her mum.. Her mum was in that plane as an air stewardess.. In her post she stated that she miss her mummy and she is back to alone again.. When I saw this, I cried.. Just because of some political ting.. ppl lost their family just like tat.. one day you are with them, the next they are gone.. you nv know what happens in the next second.. This imprinted deeply that one should cherish and treasure their love ones.. And also treasure their own lives.. Lastly rest in peace for those who are gone..
Another ting to take note about lives is don do reckless or dangerous thing and leave ur family behind to suffer.. when u are gone u are at peace but ur loves one who are still here will be the ones suffering from the lost of u and missing u.. Please don tink just about urself..

Going to Cameron Highland

Cannot wait to go to Cameron Highland. Already booked the hotel.. Altas hotel.. haha.. Now already can drool about the sweet corn there and the chocolates.. Still rmb the dessert store and the souvenir store beside it selling chocolates that is so nice..
recently got quite a lot of activities.. Have our company BBQ on 12 Jul Sat.. Next we will have our pork knuckles on 25 Jul.. And then planning a mid autumn festival on 8 Sep.. Aug got a few makan makan events too.. 2 Aug dear and I will be selecting our flats.. BTO at marsiling or admiralty.. Than 8 Aug will be our Trip to Cameron Highland.. Following Bali Trip.. haha.. on 24 Sep..
I am searching for dance classes.. Trying to arrange diff dance on the weekdays.. a bit hard.. Exotic dance only on weekends.. Then Dor only can go for belly dance on Thurs.. So i am tinking.. Belly dance thurs and maybe argentine tango with dear on Tue on sun.. or pole dance first ba.. will try to arrange ba..

alone mood

My legs hurts.. Today after meeting ivy and eileen feel so bored.. Got the mood of being alone and walking.. So I was tinking of walking until tired den take bus home.. In the end I walk all the way home from amk.. Since sec schol I sometimes have tis kind of feeling just feel lik walking.. Walk in malls.. Or take a swing at punggol.. Been so long since I have tat feel.. Sometimes still need some time alone.. Emo.. Haha.. Today got the feel again but tis time I walk for so long.. Just got the depress mood I guess or the don wan to be disturb mood.. Now got the tired mood le.. Been wondering y life is so boring.. Work slp meet friends socalize tat all.. Real life is always so practical.. No money means nth..

Been watching twilight repeatedly.. So tinking abt the difference in life.. Haha.. Sometimes tinking been immortal is gd too.. Dreaming abt all the romance.. Well love in fantasy is always big difference from reality.. Just have to accept it ba.. Well going to bath and slp le.. Gd nite.. And happiest thing is me and dear got our flat le.. At woodland.. Yay..

Friday always the happy last working day of the week.

today is friday. our company is going on a shopping spree again. We just went yesterday for shopping at Vivo. I bought like at least 10 dresses after my exam.. shopping spree going out of control.. haha.. THen i promise dear to not buy dresses anymore for 1 year.. which not sure if I can really do that haha.. said it because I wan to buy the dresses from forever new.. the very ex shop but on sales.. due to great sg sales.. Everybody doesnt seems to have mood to work in this company due to to bought over and going to move over to new office. Closing is coming again. And more report to do for the intregration. But i have extra capacity so should be ok with me. Today Breakfast is Corn Flake. Dor keep laughing at me last time for pronouncing as corn flat.. Well. I am currently still pronouncing it as corn flat.. Hahaha. A habit my mum taught..
Yesterday joce ask me out to go paya lebar walk walk.. guess it is the hari raya nite market.. been so long since i went to a night market. recently after exam I just slack at home watch show never really go out.. Other than some trial dance. Went on a ktv session with my uni frens.. having the long wait for the results to be out.. hope all of us pass with good grades. sooner or later I will go sign up for the contemporary dance.. we'll see ba.. Maybe pole dance too.
Yesterday Dear ride me to ponggol end.. New building is up with pier and big boat around etc.. saw a super big Grouper at the seafood restaurant.. but the boat kill the nice scenery to dine there and the ponds there is now full of tortise.. so cute.. well probably the guppies all that small fishes already eaten by the ponds tortise.. all looking at you waiting for you to feed them.. I told Dear today I going to buy 5 cabbages to feed the tortise.. Dear say u serious.. tomolo we comming again ar? I say haha.. yes.. They very ke lian got nth to eat. the pond totally has no food lol.. then we do some chit chatting abt my fren fabian and abt his fren winston. Dear say they have similarities.. Winston is a big flirt.. Fabian is not.. That is a big difference already..
10 Min more and we will be heading to vivo for our shopping spree again.. haha..

dumpling festival

Dumpling festival is here again.. went to ah ma hse to make ba zhang.. this year got a lot of diff variety.. we have salted egg, spicy shrimp, abalone, red bean, normal and nyona.. eat until siao.. I tink I have eaten at least 10 ba zhang this year.. highest record.. this year my ah ma even wanted to put onion in the ba zhang.. if I am not there toccustomized my own ba zhang.. guess tis year don nid to eat le.. so every year must go.. haha.. After exam lol.. is relax time now.. went on an online shopping spree.. bought a lot of stuff.. toothbrush umbrella dresses.. I tink I bought 7 dresses at one go.. wow.. haha.. well not ex de dresses la.. should stop looking at clothes le.. Wanted to book a yacht on deal.com de.. just went dor and joce both agree the deal sold out.. sian.. I been looking at the yacht for years liao.. last time quite ex.. just when they is a gd deal I am too late to buy.. hope there is another gd deal out soon.. Arrange to cut my hair and facial.. wondering wat kind of hair should I cut.. should I keep long or short hair? Need to pamper myself after exam.. Now looking at all the dancing classes.. planning to join the pole dance near my work place and the contemporary/ modern dance at yio chu kang there.. tink I will be more interested on tat cause more moves.. more actions.. need more exercises.. getting fatter liao haha.. everyday squeezing my tummy fats.. gain few kg of weight at gambro.. everyday eat, sit, eat, sit.. plus all the handmade cakes muffin cookies etc from my colleague.. everyday eat tibits wang wang.. chocolates.. so well fed at work..

Bonus & Rewards

Yay.. once again it is time for bonus and incentive.. Last year Aug already taken half year de bonus.. So this year bonus for the remaining of the other half year not so much.. I was hoping for another month but don hav.. only got half a month.. But i am happy with my increment.. this year increment is a bit more than x2 of last year de.. Boss say is confidential cnt say.. Though with this increment i am still the lowest paying employee in the company.. so sad.. Feeling lazy liao.. and boring.. haven even reach 3 years in this company yet.. need to wait for a while more.. jia you ba.. next job i must hit 3k de pay.. Exam coming soon.. start of may.. faster finish faster relax and i don have to pay school fees le.. provided i pass my exam.. Jia you Jia you must pass..~~~ This year i bought 4d myself.. won $20.. haha.. well better than nth ba.. Today my left eye keep twitching.. hope is good news.. my senior say left eye twitch means got wealth.. i hope so.. haha.. Dear got a new job..doing project coordinator.. office work.. doing something lik Ivy role.. thought he will nv do office work but still he is doing now.. not bad.. at least now can msg me during work.. not like last time.. with his salary increase.. I was hoping he will contribute more into the shared account.. he say stil got study fee la.. got my ring to buy la.. blah blah blah.. lots of excuses.. Well i will wait till u finish ur study den we say ba.. anyway his boss when interview that time say they planning to expand.. so probably can promote to manager. Joce also got a job le.. Ivy de role also.. she say very busy with the work.. she doing 9 type of drugs.. she say very busy liao.. her side still need to do lik purchasing lik tat.. same lik sam de work also.. all the best to both of them and to me too.. haha..

so boring I need a long break

Hai.. everyday need to go work and study.. feel so sian.. so bored and mentally tired.. feel lik taking a long break before work again.. but I wanted to wait 2 more years.. hai.. don doe la.. need saving also.. ytd lunch after class me and dear go bukit timah food center eat.. saw dor and her bf and her bf de fren.. talking abt girlfriends.. the guy fren lik girl lik tat hua chi de.. now de guys now also gossip lik girls.. just nice saw dor i rmb that need to tell dear i going ktv this coming sat.. so i say dear tis sat i go ktv with them (dor and joce).. den he say orh.. den dor also tell his bf.. tis sat i also go ktv with them (me and joce).. both lik doing report lik tat haha.. so funny.. den me and dear keep having debating and arguing.. den dor say ok la ok la.. eat lol don keep arguing.. den at night we went to to-gather cafe to eat.. their food not bad de wor.. maybe someday I will bring joce there all go eat.. and the ponggol tat side de hong kong cafe also..

quarreling

Wed just quarrel with dear dear.. he so stubborn.. wrong already still don admit.. keep denying and insisting I got no prove.. tinking of all his bad habit and attitude makes me wonder if I can still continue to be with him.. so unhygienic.. I already compromise and sacrifice a lot for him lol.. he also nv.. still so self centered.. only tinking abt what benefits him.. what he wants.. sometimes I feel do stuff for him also not worth it.. when he don reciprocate anyway.. give him so many chance le still also like tat.. hai.. ytd he say he will try again.. also don doe real a not.. everytime also mouth talk no action de.. still don see changes I tink jiu suan le.. I don wan to be always tolerating all his bad habit behavior and attitude.. 6 years of complaining and improvement only lik <=5%.. I also don lik to be always complaining.. but I also cnt always compromise and tolerate forever de ma.. he always can do wat he wan.. I jiu cnt do wat I wan.. he say wat also can.. I say jiu cannot.. everytime also need ppl to push him den got a bit action.. so tiring.. everytime also need to say then will do.. and do also 三分钟热度 de..

sabah padi open water dive

Went to sabah 5 days to take the padi open water dive course.. drank a lot of sea water.. the stupid mask in and out de is my nightmare.. cannot slp at night because of it.. total got 5 dives.. saw some nice fishes lik grouper with the black spots.. we have a red big eye fish.. some butterfly fish and one lionfish I tink tat wat it is called.. I almost hit two of them.. my instructor saw and pull me away.. cause tat fish will sting ppl.. got a few jellyfish sting.. well.. it was not as painful as I tot it will be.. I go snorkelling also will get stung a few times by don doe wat.. just tat this stung will be a bit more painful and u will have red swollen spots on the stung area.. will upload some pictures later on.. my big discovery on this dive are stingrays, sea slug, lionfish and turtle etc..  while swimming past the sea slug on the coral.. the sea slug float away haha.. guess the wind of my flippers make them fly.. anyway got a bad wound on the feet ankle too.. due to the flippers rub too much against my skin.. the skin drop off.. I didnt even notice.. just feel a bit pain on and off.. my instructor saw it bleeding and ask me wat happen den I realise the ankle was bleeding.. 3 days of flipper rubbing.. the skin drop out.. den I put some water and waa it hurts a lot.. den I bath all tat also hurts.. hurts like don doe how many times more than the jellyfish stung.. walk now lik yi kuai yi kuai de.. all the skin trying to heal den I walk it will stretch the skin and hurts..

Anyway my instructor is a friendly ang mo.. was a bit shock when I realise he was my instructor cause normally asian and ang mo a bit hard to click de.. but he is the open minded friendly type de so he seems to click very well with the rest.. well the instructor at sabah all very nice and friendly and helpful de.. not lik the stupid phuket ppl.. all so idiot.. oly help americans ppl cause they tink americans are richer.. money face.. sabah de all not like tat de.. all nice.. I learn this course at diverse borneo.. cheaper price nice instructors.. haha.. my instructor shuai shuai.. saw his email dominicbooth83@gmail.com den I realise their surname weird weird de.. diff I guess.. like my colleague surname is peterson.. I tink peterson still common ba.. surname booth first person I know.. one ting bad is on the first dive he drag me into the water straight away after the skills test all tat.. scare the hell out of me.. I was panicking the ear blocking and all tat.. scary for the first time.. I keep tinking I am going to drown.. after a few times it feels ok.. but still scary.. the skills especially the on off mask ting makes me panic.. the first time I did I drank a lot of water.. breath through my nose almost drown.. I am supposed to do in the water.. lucky it wasnt tat deep.. like maybe 2-6m ba.. I swim upwards to the top for air.. while I actually have the respirator.. well not used to breathing through my mouth.. after tat I use the pinch nose method and so much better but still choked on water a few times.. didnt know so much skills need to do for this course... but glad tat I finish it.. nightmare gone.. yay.. dear ask me to go for advance.. I say siao.. I also haven get used to diving yet.. he always 3 min re du de.. after a while jiu forget liao lol..

This sabah trip is for our 6 years anniversary.. so happy 6 years anniversary to us.. did my first time diving.. scary scary diving.. hahaha.. this trip also I pay half for dear birthday.. haha.. dear bought me h2o set.  he say treat as 6 years anni present.. since he say so.. not going to pay him back.. haha.. bought some fresh seafood back.. we have the sea cucumber fresh big big de.. den some fishes.. and big prawns.. the seafood shop uncle say y I everyting also don doe how to cook de.. come on I oly 23 lol.. how would I know I am not a chef.. my mum don cook so many diff type of fishes right.. u say steam I know la.. not lik I know what fish need to cook using what method de ma.. if I so clever I will be chef liao.. not chef tat y ask ma.. we went fish night market there eat.. damn nice.. ate scallop veg and bbq fish oly rm 32.. just the prawn more ex there.. prawns there rm 45.. took a lot of photo with my piano black instant camera.. yay at last got the chance to use it.. last year went phuket forgot to bring cause i rushing to dear hse the nite before.. fabian cnt wait to long to drive me over so I rush and forgot.. this time nv forgot.. yay.. give away a few pieces to other ppl also.. well suan la ba.. I am a generous girl.. haha..

same feeling as this..

正当爱很不容易, 而我遇见了你。很感谢你给我在一
起的勇气。或许爱很不容易才能够痊愈。我却因为你找回了信心。

Tat day one of my colleague ask me if I am affected by my parents divorce.. and I don trust or believe in relationship.. well.. I guess I am sort of affected ba.. I don trust guys tat much.. my colleague say well u still seems to be ok.. at least u still try to go into a relationship.. I tink through her words and realise true.. I am trying.. apart from family background.. apart from past failed relationship.. I am still trying and hoping to find the right one.. which also means i haven give up and because of him.. it is sort of slowly recovering.

kick off meeting malacca

Kick off meeting at malacca.. so shiok.. got rm 100 buck allowance for food and transport.. don need to work can go shopping.. meals provided.. if everytime lik tat jiu hao.. got free meal plus money to spend.. first day reach there so hungry.. not enough time for lunch.. in the end team building tat time ate oly ice cream and goreng pisah tat I found on the way.. den dinner we wanted to eat assam laksa.. but thurs so all close.. we can eat Portuguese food but they don wan.. so we ate hard rock instead.. second day we got meeting.. so boring.. meeting whole day.. sian.. director caught me slping.. but don care.. really very tired leh.. having headache tat day also.. den at nite we went jonker street again.. walk walk shop shop.. introduce my colleague the panty roses.. they bought for their wives.. haha.. third day free and easy.. we went to eat chendol plus the laksa.. shiok.. den shopping buy souvenir buy famous amos cookies plus local products.. went to the mdm goh pineapples tart there.. intro to my colleagues.. the aunty gave me a box of wife bisuits for free.. tink its for my introduction fee.. haha.. well.. my dear hate the uncle.. he say the uncle attitude not gd.. the aunty attitude better.. anyway mui lee nv go cause sick.. I alone one room.. lucky the room is connecting de.. so connecting with kyle and jasmine.. haha.. gd.. they morning call me everyday.. not a bad trip la.. but still prefer if the meeting is only half day..

Anyway day meet my dear.. supposed to study in the end we slp haha.. dear say he love me.. I say I love him too.. he say he love me more I say I love him most.. he say he love me mega most.. lol.. sounds lik the rapunzel movie.. the so call good mother and rapunzel de speech.. haha..

Valentine Day

Today is valentine day.. me and dear de 6th valentine day.. today dear say don doe whether I would like the present he buy.. well.. no matter what present.. is the sincerity that counts.. no matter what present I also will like.. handmake de even priceless cause no body have except me.. haha.. this year I design our own memories together and put on the cups.. have it delivered to dear house without informing him. Dear got a shock.. thought someone give him some black curse cause the cups are black.. so funny.. hu would want to curse my dear dear? The design would only be shown when u pour hot water.. I haven see it yet.. guess tomolo I will be able to see it.. wonder my design on the cup will be nice a not..  today dear give me rose again.. but this time the rose can be with me forever de.. it will not wither.. is a gold rose.. just when I was tinking of asking dear to buy that.. but I didnt cause it is too fragile.. squash it jiu out of shape le.. didnt know that even when I didnt say dear also bought.. really is xin ling xiang tong.. just few days ago.. my rose plant was botak.. no leaves at all.. I ask my mum.. did u water it? She say yes.. I didnt believe her so I water myself.. now it is with lots of leaves.. all new a bit red leaves.. hope it will have roses soon.. haven check yet though today..

My design for the cups.. will compare when I see original



My gold rose

life

不知为了什么我这几天的心情都好低落。好像得忧郁症是的。哈哈开玩笑。今天老师说了大概20分钟才下课。他说每一天都是他的生日。为什么?长话短说就是今天不知道明天会发生什么事所以每天都要过的开心没有遗憾。这个道理我早就领悟到了。你今天活着明天就可能死了。这事领我想到我一直都在想的事。我是一个没有耐心的人。就说成绩吧!我最讨厌就是等成绩。喜欢一考完就知道拿几分。我喜欢早知道答案。我喜欢知道结果。有时我会想。要是今天我死了。我也甘愿因为我觉得已经够了。我有疼我的妈妈。男朋友。和朋友。如果有的选择死或者活着我会选择死。因为我害怕以后的事。人不可能什么都有。爱情亲情友情。我不想有一天我会失望或伤心。尤其是对爱情的事。可能我中毒太深。我妈和身边认识的人的下场让我没有信心。所以为了不收伤害我会选择放弃。我对什么事都开朗也有信心唯独这个没有。我不想有一天伤心和失望。所以选择放弃。要是我还没有死那我就会想要知道。不管开心或不开心的事都不喜欢被隐瞒。真矛盾。又害怕伤心又不喜欢被隐瞒。真的麻烦。到现在我从没有觉得后悔决定和他在一起。因为如今我觉得很开心也幸福。虽然有时还是会因为他而哭。但是多数是开心的。我希望有一天我流眼泪不是因为伤心而是感动或开心。贪心一点。最好开心的眼泪多过伤心的。还有我不想有一天因为生病而痛苦的死。所以我会常常希望像童话的吸血鬼一样不会生病而死。而且童话的爱情故事都是永恒的不会变的。我不喜欢陈经拥有。我喜欢永远拥有。要不就拥有一辈子要不就不要拥有过。

最近常常看天上的星星和月亮。让我想到那时在他婆婆家一起看到的星星。真美丽。真想有许多记得住快乐美丽的回忆。

现在的心情就象是放弃他的心情一样。拿走后心情不好是正常的。现在为什么心情不好就不知道。那天是09-10-2012我还留住卡为了知道日子。所然不后悔但是还是会想起。要是没有拿走应该在一起有半年了吧。

next level

Hai.. I feel that it is getting boring.. studying is boring.. work is boring.. relationship is boring.. Study.. always boring.. hope I can finish my degree with honors.. need more discipline.. need more control.. how the hell am I going to get my degree with honor. Grrrr.. next level.. if I pass.. should I go for a cpa?? Most likely the ans should be a yes.. but probably need some break time first.. we'll see if the time is up as to when will I continue my cpa.. Working.. another boring thing.. im waiting for the new of moving to baxter.. the new experience and event that I look forward to.. although I am happy here.. but its too constant and getting bored.. even though I wanted to stay for few year before proceeding to a next job.. but still hai.. I an aiming for some management job but can I get one is unknown.. currently this change of moving to baxter at least can excite me a little.. since I am doing my work to fast have extra time on my hand which I do not know wat else I can do.. hoping this change of environment can really help to motivate to stay as I wish too.. maybe I am really the type tat can stay in one place for long. . I will get to bored.. Relationship.. constant and stagnant. . Becoming 100% Boring and uninteresting.. I really hope to move to the next level.. don wan to talk abt money and all that nonsense.. not sure if I am too eager to move to the next level to stay together or just he is to uninterested to move the relationship to next level.. I need some new thing to make it exciting. Without money jiu cannot move to next level meh? I have already think of all possible ways but still no actions taken.. how long can this relationship be constant before I burst out of boredom? Wat else can I do to prevent this constant.. we been together for 6 years.. few years of constant is really boring me out.. it just as easy as just move together stay together morning wake up able to see him wake up with a kiss not a msg one.. at nite slp able to get a real kiss too.. how hard is that? Why is there so many issues with that? Going for trip overseas islike the best ting everytime liao.. cause it is the only time that can fulfil what I want.. but is only a short tern ting.. sometimes I really wonder how can a couple been in 8-10years relationship constant.. before moving to next level.. what do they do to make it exciting? I am only in 6 and I am really bursting.. Conclusion.. maybe I just cnt stand being constant doing same stuff without new event.. without new stuff.. for work and for relationship.. I need someting new badly.. new event new memories.. new someting.. whatever that can be exciting..

CNY & valentine day

Its Chinese New Year time.. received hong bao.. This year Hong Bao seems to increase in amount.. Just when i was complaining to Wei Lin about our family de rate always remain the same.. But still overall not much difference though.. this fri going to Ka wei house to celebrate the new year. Hope wont be the same as how it ended last year.. Just a mahjong game.. why are people so sore loser.. this month Feb will be a busy month.. going kick off meeting at malacca.. a bit boring about the place though but going with diff batch of people diff experience.. Why cannot go further place? So stingy.. haha.. Next mon meeting joce they all.. haha.. still hanging out.. 7-8 years of friends.. nice.. rbc say go to her house.. Then will be valentine day liao.. wonder got what plans anot.. how would we be celebrating valentine this year? looking forward.. My family got a few cousin married liao.. give birth le also.. now going to have another baby nephew.. Next year two of my other cousin is getting married.. THis year my company got three getting married.. three hong bao to give.. big bomb.. Exam are coming in May.. this year is last year le.. hope i pass my exam and best with a honor degree.. not sure if i can get a honor.. Jia You ba.. Not sure this year will move location a not.. since we going to baxter side now.. no news.. but bonus will be in apr.. yay.. feeling a bit bored at work le.. nth much changes.. every day do about the same ting.. but i will stay for a few more years.. cause i am happy working here with nice colleagues.. always got free new clothes too..

our memories

I found out that I have not been posting often.. some details of my life and memories are left out.. I read through my past post.. help me rmb some.. first valentine 2009 with my dear was at the hotpot at marina square.. dear bought a bouquet of ferrero rocher with one rose.. known as wei yi.. on my first birthday celebration with dear should be 2008.. we ate at maison with oreo cheese cake.. on my second valentine 2010 it was with new year.. dear bought me an anklet.. well tat anklet is lose and missing le.. anniversary of our first year mar 2009 was at the beach.. dear make sushi with wasabi.. not knowing i don eat wasabi.. my second birthday 2009 was not celebrated with dear cause he isnt around.. cnt rmb why le.. either army or penang trip with his friends tat time.. third and fourth fifth not posted.. trying to recall.. if I am not wrong my birthday 2011 was with my nhg friends and dear surprise me with paradise fruit tart.. 2012 valentine was celebrated again I tink at marina.. whereby I got a rose bouquet too.. last year 2013 anniversary we went to phuket to celebrate.. this year we will be going sabah.. year 2012 birthday was when I am 21st.. we had a birthday celebration together with celebrating dor birthday.. it wasat sentosa hard rock hotel.. such a nice place.. this birthday present was a sponsorship of $500 cash from dear dear.. tat was also the day whereby I forgot my clothes when bathing.. was waiting for dor to come out from her shower and help me go out take.. when someone came in with a bag of clothes saying my bf request to pass it to me.. haha.. I tink dear always used to my blur sotong way.. 2013 valentine was not celebrated.. or celebrated with anniversary for the phuket trip.. 2013 birthday.. dear give me the dancing star earrings.. haha.. what would I get for valentine is unknown this year.. haha.. anniversary was going sabah and was a present from me for dear 2014 birthday present..

year 2013

Time pass so fast.. now is year 2013 aug le.. start working full time also got a few years le.. working in gambro almost 2 years le.. hehe.. so lucky got another bonus this month.. not much but better than nth.. good time to have join the company.. normally obe year once de bonus.. cause got bought over tat y got one more extra.. next time de bonus will be under baxter le.. say bye bye to gambro soon..

Tis two years I have been going overseas quite a multiple times.. go bangkok, phuket.. mostly malaysia.. sibu, desaru, johor.. genting.. This year first time when to dear de malaysia kampong.. there de star so nice.. haha.. went to climb these mountain.. all stairs.. when I come down my legs shaking automatically.. dear still ask me go again.. I then don wan.. one ting I miss is pancake.. the pancake so nice.. although corn very little but cheap.. myr 30 cents also.. nth much to do.. but got a farm and a big disgusting pervert dog.. haha..
Got a shock.. imagine u took a nap when u wake up saw a flat big grasshopper ting lying beside u.. and u tinking u probably squash it while slping.. feel a bit disgusting but also a bit sad for the insect.. they also say insects are ancestors.. den I would be considered squashed one of dear ancestor le..

Went phuket with dear.. so wonderful just the two of us for 3-4 days.. haha.. got the same experience as dor.. the lizard drop down when I opening the door.. scare me.. slimy slimy de run away.. eek.. den dear got a bad sunburn and there goes my 3 hour.. hai.. he lol.. almost so stubborn like to act tough.. I wont sunburn de.. in the end burn lik lobster.. haha..every year should have such two ppl trip again.. beside dear dear..

Oct I going hokkaido lol and medan with my mum.. lots of seafood waiting for me.. must eat alaska crab there.. hehe.. fresh.. hope is a gd trip..

These few days got quarrel with dear dear.. don doe y just got the feel of being alone.. don doe is because relationship dan hua le or I change le.. last time I always tink tat without dear dear cnt live.. now no more these type of tinking le.. maybe cause I qi guan or give up le or wat.. everytime I got tis fire burning den dear is like the cold water splash down jiu no more liao.. so many times until probably immune liao.. everytime msg also not much reply.. connection like not as strong.. and feel like with dear jiu good but without him jiu not much of the connection le.. not miss him tat much when I don see him le.. talk to him also don listen to me de.. so stubborn.. talk until I also don care liao.. lazy to say.. also now not much got a romance feeling le.. going to 6 years I tink tis is wat they call Dan hua le ba.. don doe how to explain.. but I don always stick to him anymore le also.. he also wont stick to me so no longer stick to him le.. hope there is new occasion or event tat can cheer and boost my morale ba..

updating life

I am going to be 21 soon.. working in a medical company as accounts executive.. studying part time in degree in accounts and finance.. exams are coming in about 4 months time and i have yet to study anything..Although Accounts is my thing but workingis still tedious.. study you can make 1 month holiday 1 week holidays through out the year plus public holiday.. working only have 14 days leave and public holiday.. some still only have 7 days leave.. work 5 days rest two days.. study also the same what.. some more study only 6-7 hours.. People who live up in rich family jiu hao lol.. wan car got car wan play can play don work still got money.. happy jiu fail exam also not they pay.. ppl with only well to do family jiu so arrogant.. like they own the world.. got money then? got money don work lol.. if you can don work then u can be arrogant all you want.. only little money eat in pepper lunch eat still say big words.. waa i got 10 gf and then prove what? u are a womaniser? how proud is that? ppl will only be disgusted with you.. or even worse curse you..

Today i face the same ting once again.. bank deducting charges from my account.. so piss off.. pay u peanuts for interest and deduct many many times more for charges.. Banks are always like that.. deducted money that can pay u back by interest slowly slowly by years.. deduct liao u say they say ya they deduct give u a stupid reason and say is the policy.. We have told initial when opening account that it like that when they did not.. Then how? will you rmb years back who attend to you when opening account? Even if you rmb who to prove that they did not say? this time is even worse.. deduct liao and then say cnt waive.. other bank don have only u have and you say is your bank policy.. is in the term and conditions.. then for what? seriously for wat do I have to use your card.. i use ur card u deduct charges.. i use other bank nv deduct..

My mum is just ridiculous.. like ppl to make fun of her and she feel so proud and happy.. wonder if her mind is working or a screw is lose in her mind.. Cousin comes and see our house when our house is in a mess..and some more she is like introducing.. see this the sofa so many clothes.. see the bed also so messy blah blah blah.. seriously very proud meh?

reblog

Its been so long since I blog.. Many ting need to update now.. I start working at company Gambro as account executive.. Boss good company good colleague good.. It totally lik working in heaven compared to working at NUH.. Boss crazy and like heart unbalance.. First time I heard some one scold you just say that you don cry when get scolded.. First time got people like to see other cry.. and first time I see people also don doe how old liao use paper clip to clip hair.. haha..

Secondly I am studying at SIM university and pursuing accounts.. yes.. and my exams are coming.. Hope I pass and I better do cause I dont wan to waste money retake..waaa.. must pass must pass..

I met new friends at university and after exam I going to genting with them.. haha..

Now with my bf is already 4 years.. got a new stuff toy after so long.. my bf buy de.. a very cute stitch.. my bf got a bike also.. tat y drive me to yishun dam.. so happy.. moon so round and big and by luck we saw fireworks.. we are always so lucky.. haha.. but he said something that I dont like to hear.. he ask me to build a little wall against him.. he say everyone will change.. hu doe what will happen in the future.. true enough but makes me go wondering many many things.. hope it does not mean wat I think and wat I tink does not happen ba..

Hai.. its time to do my housework been super busy and no time to do..

Jia You for exam..

disappointment

SO disappointed with my dear dear.. told him so many times lik talking to the wall.. he nv listen.. stubborn.. make mi angry oly.. make mi wait for him to reply even though he doe i hates it.. say he slping nap also cn say rite.. go out fren with also nv reply.. at home also reply late.. at work also nv reply.. since he cnt be bothered, from now on, i also cannot be bothered le.. tired just repeating myself.. so I just sms him only when i tink i am free.. not going to tell mi when i nap also.. just let him wait for his sms..

last nite found out tat he isnt honest with mi also.. though to some ppl its a small matter but i hate liars.. no matter big or small.. he pretend he is slping while he is watching show.. hu doe how long he has been doing tat pretense.. his excuse was i knew u will be angry so wan slp late tat time just sms early first.. wow.. wat gd excuse.. as long as he tink i will get angry den he got the reason to lie? Den next time i also do the same lol.. i go out with fren or wat late slp late den i just lie lol.. knew he will be angry ma.. den next time go out with gal or fren late go home also will lie and say reach home le lol.. so say go out with oly guy fren.. sometimes he go out with fren already didnt say truth le.. at first say go out with guy den in the end also got gal.. say oly when i found out and ask.. den say is last min decision.. if i nv find out den don nid say lol.. off also nv say off when de.. until i found out ask den say.. next time i den don believe wat he say..

last week someting happen not just embarassment, plus devastating and frustration.. I really really really wan to send him to hell.. stab him straight in his heart and nv c him again.. jail is not enough for ppl hu are pervert.. someting that i feel lik having a anmesia and nv wan to rmb no matter wat it takes.. someting i will nv forget.. and i hope tat he die a horrible death.. best got his eyes dug out.. u cn nv imagine so it will feels.. his eyes just staring at u while u looking at him and he doesnt feels apologetic at all.. don c him take any action fast enough but oly do it slowly.. saying he didnt do on purpose.. ya rite.. hu will believe.. physotic pervert.. I nv nv nv wan to c him in my next next next and next life.. though not gd to post here as if someone c it he may feel very sad but i cnt be bothered.. ppl lik him should get torture terribly in hell.. and he can still lie through his teeth and say someting tat even dumb ppl doe it isnt true.. I really cnt explain my frustration.. it makes my blood boil and agitated even to just type it..

I cant save my hamsters

Up til now, I don tink my hamster died a peaceful death.. They die by illness, injuries and accident.. And all I could do is to stand there and watch them suffer.. Like my fav one, mommy ham ham with her infected eye.. lost her sight for a while.. suffering even after a surgery.. and nth tat i could do to save her.. Sometimes I wonder if we keep her better in better bedding and better condition she wont have it.. Everytime it just come to someting call money.. which means mi frustrated.. If cannot keep a pet in good condition then don keep one.. Father died because of a fight and he too suffered from his injured leg.. I wonder it is fracture or what.. But he is strong.. and still he die suffering with nth I can help to save.. Then there is female kid escape from the cage.. and accidents here and there choke to dealth by the house opening, squash and babies born not even lived a day..
however, one die last sunday.. even gender is unsure but i guess its male.. and died with mi around.. and its my fault.. He was fighting with another one or bully and beaten.. his squeak and shout but I took no notice and pay no attention til it was too late.. If i went to take a glance, just one glance, he wont be suffering till death and wont even die.. I will be able to save him.. But I didnt and it too late and I wasnt be able to help him after tat.. oly able to watch him suffer.. his face covered with red blood and blood and cuts on his back.. and his limping and not being able to move much.. couching himself together.. But he is still breathing.. I tot he may be able to survive cause they recover fast.. but I tink the injuries are too serious for him and I don even doe wat to do for his bleeding wounds.. I cant help at all to make him better.. and I wasnt even given the chance to nurse him back to health although not sure how, I was planning to stand by his side and protect him.. but he died before tat..
So now I just hope tat one of them get her eyes recover totally.. and the rest died peacefully and without accident or illness.. All those who died from accidents and illnesss and none tat I can save.. Tis will be in memory of them every single one.. never forgotten..

relation-tired

relationship really can make u tired.. physically and mentally.. Make u doesnt wan to care more abt anything.. even tired to continue a quarrel or argument.. maybe its the work of being upset.. make mi feel hate.. making my heart not stable.. making mi don doe to hope or not to hope.. make mi wonder over and over again abt it.. make mi wonder how long cn it last.. make mi wonder how long it can stay on.. having to repeat mistakes over and over.. having to getting hurt again and again.. make mi tink wat is the point..
however, the most irritating part is what to do? one side gd one side bad.. gd can be very gd while bad can be untolerable.. seriously, wat can be done? staying on and tolerating hoping that it will soon be over and past and gd days will cme cause we all know fresh in the mind tat the same ting will still repeats.. being awake and keep it shut.. being awake will tell u tis time is gone but when will the next cme? and whether I could still continue when it comes? how long u wan to tolerate.. in future there is still going to be prob much worse than this.. must well give up.. while keeping it shut will say since its so long liao just continue.. u doe tat tis is wat u wanted.. just a little tolerance will do.. tis kind of ting confirm will matter de wat.. without it relationship wont get stronger..
but still y cant it stop repeating? does it really make it stronger.. some how to me i don c it stronger.. maybe it does but i just don c it.. i just c that it makes ppl feel sick, feel irritated and feel much worse hurt than previous when it comes.. every single time it come it adds on and heavier to carry and continue.. there is one way to stop and i hope i don cme to tat way because i don wan to.. so pls.. pls stop pushing.. its already very close.. just a bit more and i feel tat i'm falling apart or maybe i'm already start to fall apart.. so pls.. i'm already pushing it backward to retain.. but y keep pushing forward.. stop pushing forward..

Happy Birthday

today is my birthday.. yay.. celebrate with my best best best fren dor.. went to bugis to buy my pants and shop a few other things.. Then go plaza sing to buy skirt and dress.. lucky for mi before tat i didnt buy the dress now gt 50 percent off.. wow!!! after tat actually still wan go pasir ris catch guppy de.. ut dor say she very tired wan to go find her bf.. so too bad i cme back home eat my mum cook for mi de two egg mee suan.. haha den she ask mi wan go buy cake.. rush down to nex to buy a cake from swiss bake hazelnut crunch.. not bad but wonder whether it is the same as sam birthday tat cake.. mum say not very nice still prefer the angie the choice.. hai.. and go yoga late after tat..

sad ting today is dear nv celebrate with mi.. and he oly coming back on the sunday.. sob sob.. so long.. wonder whether will miss his birthday too.. his present still waiting for him to cme back and buy together.. waiting for Sam dear dear's home cook birthday treat.. haha.. so contradicting.. hope he faster cme back but don wan schol reopen to cme fast.. which falls on the next day.. lol!! hai..

irresponsible owners

Dear pet owners, think whether u or ur family treat ur pets well.. Pets have emotions too.. Put urself in their shoes and c if u r happy when someone treat u the same way as how u or ur family treat them.. if not, please do not torture them or end up giving their lives away.. Don't buy pet if u cnt be responsible or treat them well.. Save animals from torturing and cruelty or may u be torture by ur revenge pets..

some owner or their family are so cruel.. they tink that pets are just some doll or toy and start hitting them when they are angry.. or cause them to an accidental or purposely kill by u.. their lives are not for u to waste it.. If u cnt be careful around them and treat them well dont buy pets.. else u will get what u deserve soon..

malaysia

first time go malaysia without my mum and without my school.. but with my bf and frens.. haha.. went in go eat bah ku teh.. very nice.. but the aunty bluff mi.. say put mix inside the soup but i don c one piece of kidney in the soup.. but still nice.. and she forgot out you tiao.. we also forgot.. until after finish le then rmb my you tiao gone.. then go beside de shop bought a cuttlefish.. those liu yu.. after that we go holiday inn buy couple tees.. at last got our couple tees and the sizes.. tat shop de is print for u de.. but nid wait a while den cn get.. bought one cookie monster shirt for my baby nephew also.. very cheap de.. lose to dear dear in sissors paper stone.. so i took the one tat is nv eat rice oly wash bowl.. dear take the oly eat rice nv wash bowl.. so sad..

fishing

today fishing trip in all bad luck got a little gd luck.. reach there not a while rain till very heavy.. although i lik it better than sunny.. haha.. to me still gd luck.. just hated the wet part.. after that, we caught a big crab.. so many crab net there, no one caught while we accidentally caught one big de using fish rod.. haha.. contradicting.. rain so heavy tat the further ship very blur.. like ghost ship.. eat my fav seafood today.. stingray and sotong.. tomolo going malaysia.. finally without my mum with my friends not for school.. excited, looking forward..

life now

tues went to c my aby nephew.. so cute..
1st watch abt 3 hours of hi 5 barney etc with him.. haha.. so sian
2nd walk 5 storey of stairs.
3rd cry cause no hi 5 watch.. mum don allow him watch
4th slp while an ant crawl on my stomach.. lol

Ytd went out with dear.. watch harry potter and eat some hong kong cafe.. couldnt slp well last nite also.. hai.. mum nag abt covering my head with a blanket.. but i lik.. haha.. today schol sian.. overslept by 15 min.. but nt late.. haha..

Guess which pic is the lastest and which is the youngest

holiday

holiday again.. rearing fishes.. goldfish for now.. killed many although but don wan to give up..
today went robinson buy stuff.. hai starting my saving plan.. spend too many le.. spend more than earn.. went ktv.. eat ex food, tis and tat.. go prawning.. 1 h catch one.. sad cause raining.. tuition.. am happy cause have improve relationship with the prob boi.. as least not the hard way.. someting call chi ruan bu chi ying.. One ting tat i still don doe.. my career.. hai after poly don doe wat to do.. always one step at a time.. no uni den work ba.. that the ting.. or maybe just work den after that study.. cause no studying mood also.. maybe work is a better way but definitely not sales line.. nv..

failure

ytd went out with dear dear.. first stop is potong pasir.. wan to eat joce recommend de prata.. however sad it is close.. so on my way to go chinatown for another recommendation cheese bread, I saw a small kodomo dragon crawling on the grass up the slope.. sadly didnt get to take a pic.. after tat, went chinatown could not get my cheese bread.. sold out le.. but get the famous yong tau fu.. dear dear queue.. haha.. so unlucky de.. everyting i wan also don hav.. after tat go orchard take loreal watch also cnt.. office hours.. not open.. got a iron for my hse..

sat went out also.. wanted to catch guppies at pasir ris.. instead went fish spa.. cause catch guppies trip fail.. close liao.. hai.. we walk all the way from the inter to the fish ting.. so far.. but there de fish spa cheap.. 30 min oly 10 dollar.. but there e fish big big de at first put in so itchy haha.. dear also don dare put in.. haha.. dear scared of fishes.. nibbing his feet.. he say one whole swarm of black black the fishes at ur leg very disgusting.. haha.. last 10 min i put my hand in also.. cn feel lik they biting mi.. werid but fun..

wow wow

3 months since i updated it.. wow.. busy with stuff now slow internet at home, proj, tuition playing with my baby newphew.. one year plus walking already but still blabbering.. talking kiddo language.. today staying at my ah yi hse.. tomolo wake up cn play with him le haha..

1st update - moving hse back to hougang or maybe already did
2nd update - proj in a rush trying to finish up ASAP.. cause the ending is near
3rd update - ut not bad but tink second ut for financial will sucks.
4th update - opening a hse warming party.. wish it go well
5th update teaching a pri 4 attitude boy which is getting on my nerves doesnt doe how to help him..
6th update - two other pri 2 is still not bad girl works slow motion.. or too slow motion and guy english sucks.. wish I helps..
7th update - pri 3 boy too talkative distracting others maybe all are..
8th update pri 2 girl at yishun.. smart hate studying i mean hu don most does.. her present she wanted water color pencils?? and 24 in quantity..
9th update - dear just told mi nite for the second time..
10th update - fyp team sucks.. proj sucks.. wish them could buck up and pls pls don drag mi.. i did a lot for it..
11th update - dear maybe going brunei for 1 YEAR.. if so will miss him.. hai no way to decide of course i wan mi but going may allow him hav better future.
12th update - worse face to face fight fall last sat.. bad quarrel yap.. lucky it ended fast..
13th update - joce birthday coming.. wat should we do?? birthday party?? presents??
14th update - going get a video camera for myself soon.. waa. nice.. cuase i bought a tv and free camera... wahaha.. although some what nt tat useful to mi la.. when do i take photos??

some thinking

today I thinking that some kind of tin or sometimes, not knowing abt the truth is better than knowing or worst pretending tat u doesnt doe, not sad and nt hurt.. at least if u doesnt doe, u feel much happier.. its always better than feeling hurt like a hole at will not close up or even if it doesthere will still be stitches.. nv knowing when it will be tear apart again.. always fearing of it tearing apart.. not knowing wont make u lose ur happiness make u pessimistic.. it makes u still cheerful lik u originally was.. but tat oly if u nv had known the truth even til u r dead.. so u wont feel hurt as u nv de tat wat u have seen and known was actually just a false image.. however we doe that the truth always get reveal no matter how and no matter wat so wat for hiding it when it will still be reveal somehow and someday.. it the dumbest tink i tink they do.. or worst dare to do, dare to lie but do not dare to admit.. the most coward and intolerable ting in my life.. so therefore as a warning, whoever hurt mi deep or lie to mi, will be drive out of my life and nt given another chance.. no pitiness and nt even getting close to mi.. cause tat wat u do to mi and tat wat u will receive.. don say it cold hearted cause i don tink they have too.. it wat they deserve..

scholing

schol start le.. yay.. new sems new fren.. no more long slping time.. sian.. one day in schol ytd i overslp late til very very late.. the faci after class still ask mi y late.. today go wrong class start schol two day also late damn sian.. wish the faci don mark late lol.. every class tat i have gt someone same class as mi.. at least still better.. facijust said nt going mark late.. yes..

holiday time

every long nv write my blog le..

last sat went dear hse watch some show.. i tink is little mermaid 2.. went out with dear and fren in late afternoon.. went pongol end to fish.. it very long since i went there.. don doe whether to entrance was a different place or they have changed.. last time we go it was different.. had a security guard there and a bus stop.. anyway, it was super hot.. wish I had a air con always beside mi.. we had a few fishes.. all small small fishes.. at nite was the best time.. strong wind so cooling.. but very dark.. don lik it.. playing songs and looking at the sea.. some boat light from across.. view so nice.. after tat went eat at 401.. past hse kopitiam.. miss the food there.. get to eat my fav hokkien mee which i already used to eating there de ad nice rojak.. haha.. a big smile for it.. =).. last went to marina barage.. nite view very nice although oly get to admire for a little time.. crowded.. but nice.. kite in light string with light lik flashing stars.. and of course some real stars too.. was late go home cause we had lost our way.. went into the newton circle for don doe how many times wondering which way to get out.. hai.. 6ppl in the car including mi could rmb which route we just taken and went in again.. struck there for a while.. but still thx them for driving mi home and also wasting their time.. they still went back to look for the rite path when i reach home.. haha

sun: nid to refresh my memory a bit... went to eat arnold chicken i tink if tat the correct name.. and then my fav smelly toufu.. dear could not stop complaining.. the rite word he use for it "dog poo".. "nv going there ever again.. oly tis once for u.. " haha.. he doe where it is and i don.. craving for it for very long since there is no nite market i went tat has it.. went marina shop a bit.. stop at the soft toy catching machine for a little time.. went bugis played some arcade machine and then shop for some nice short it for our anni present.. he say i cn 'ka' him since it for our anni.. but i tink better not and then he had camp the next day so .. home sweet home..

tues: slp till very late as usual.. 2.30. watch some shows.. went to a some sort of wedding type dinner which is a temple event.. in the open air grass land in front of my hse.. my table are all grandma, old aunties.. starting with quarrelling shouting about seats.. i said i book this 3 seats blah blah blah.. then dinner started at 9.. lucky i ate porridge first.. some flies here and there.. anyway i saw a fly struck on the mayo prawn and the aunty opp mi ate it.. omg.. didnt dare to tell her.. dishes serve super slowly.. and then my ah ma stop eating and all aunties started looking at the aunty next table.. gossiping.. last dessert.. ice cream.. my ah ma's share was taken by some kiasu aunt who try to tabao as many as she cn home.. so she was complaining to fren on the way home.. haha.. at least there is still one.. she cant eat ice cream anyway.. it still for mi or my mum.. i don mind oly having one.. cn still share.. don lik ice cream tat much either.. having flu today.. and writing tis post is making mi dehydrating.. going slp with my nice fan..

upload pics when i am free and interent working again.. which i hope soon..

valentine time n new year

valentine was on new year.. however had a postpon one.. so valentine.. went for k.. i suggested or wanted it.. dear bought mi a anklet for valentine.. and i bought a set of couple clothes for him.. and of course myself too.. had a good singing time.. he sing happy valentine to mi too.. don doe whether it was planned or not..

new year was the time for our relative reunion.. although we still have it often.. play some cards.. and win.. ate steamboat together.. played mahjong don doe on which day and won 16 dollars again.. although we play lik 20 cents..

new year 3rd day i tink.. i went to dear hse to bai nian.. but sadly no one was at home.. too bad.. den he cme over to my hse.. actually was he first den mi but tat nite going my da yi hse.. so.. den he come over.. went to my da yi hse with mi.. although it wasnt for long den he had to go home.. next day has camp.. but still glad cause it was his first officially meeting relatives and family day.. haha.. although don doe wat my mum was tinking.. probably afraid tat i might get hurt.. so she will say sometimes.. he is just ur fren.. don put too much feeling in it.. he is not very important blah blah blah.. and sometimes she will say a diff story.. so,, don even doe whether she did admit tat he is my bf or not..

before new year some day couldnt rmb.. went steamboat with my fren.. ann, sharon, ivan alvin zi qian and her bf.. they ate very little.. so surprisingly.. and after tat took a taxi to ann hse.. was tolerating in the cab cause i in nid of going to toliet.. after alighting one funny ting happen.. ivan went ahead first and i ran from behind.. urgent for toliet he started running too.. and ann also.. confused, i stop.. den i realise tat he tot i was running just to pay back the taxi fare tat he paid.. haha.. so dumb.. of course i nt so dumb.. run after him doesnt mean he will accepted.. we have our own stubborn ways.. haha.. and i did get it in his wallet after all.. which means.. gals win.. joce, and rebecca join.. and ann fren.. after joce rebecca and sharon left,, we played mahjong.. staying overnite at her hse anyway.. lose a little money but lot of my beauty slp.. went to bed oly at 6 plus and woke at 10 plus 11 i tink.. tat was also the day when my dear was mad at mi for nt telling him earlier tat i was at fren hse and staying over.. sort out in the end also..

new year time pass fast and soon it will be over..

UT

UT week.. super sian.. now in holiday mood liao.. no mood to study.. wish faster finish ut.. valentine coming le.. still haven plan yet.. don doe wat to buy.. some more its on new year.. should brought forward to when? hai.. some more my china attachment also don doe going a not.. my fren still haven decide.. I also don wan go alone.. but don doe feel lik wasting a good chance.. its still a good experience.. some more we only fork out 640 and go 1 mth.. wish my fren decide to go..

no mood

hai.. these few days so bad mood.. any small ting cn make mi super irritated tink should try to silent myself in case i get into a quarrel with someone.. no mood to do things at all.. also don doe wat i should do.. totally no mood to do anything.. so bored so sian and so lifeless.. no where to go.. same places always and now should save money liao.. not working any more.. oly one ting keeps mi excited and tat is abt moving into my new hse.. hopes it wont disappoint mi..

lousiest hotel ever

the worst hotel ever.. my dear birthday and last min decision so i decided to go to book a room for a party.. what a cheater hotel.. room rates on internet is different from when you call and book and also different when u go down.. from 80++ increase drastically to 120++..wow!! went there to early so go back and reach at 3.. ask mi for a IC which i did not have den dor give him.. after printing keying etc and dor sign the form, time to pay.. they do not accept nets.. wat the hell.. nvm.. went to nearest atm to withdraw cme back and ha!! they say u 18?? 18 cnt check inoly 21 den cn.. then 18 also cnt overnight.. wth.. after so damn long den say tat.. after tat ask dear to go check in, dear ask him politely 18 cnt stay overnight? he say ya.. dor bf say will nv tell us earlier? he replied so sarcatically "u all didnt ask? did you all ask?? huh??" wat kind of lousy attitude is that? dont he doe that customer is always right? "wat cn we do?? it the govt law? 18 cnt stay overnight.. every hotel also is the same and every hotel also doe.. it the law.." my dear replied him"every hotel doe but doesnt mean every customer doe".. idiotic nv use brain staff: " if u don lik den just cancel the room lol!! u cn cancel it de!!" waa wat a gd way to increase ur company sales.. haha..
Conclusion: no matter u cme to travel or wat,, don ever go to windsor hotel.. worst attitude I ever seen..
PS: if ur company nid to be famous,, go and hire the staff he will definitely make ur company famous.. ha!! but of course not in a gd way..

videos

today went dear hse.. c my hamster and watch some show.. damn lazy and bored to go school. help dear get some clothes that he forgt to bring in ns too.. took some ham ham videos and cute dog.. one is ham ham dreaming of eating.. or maybe he's eating upside down haha.. another is a dumb ham ham trying to squeeze through the gate of his cage and got squashed.. and some funny scenes.. not finish posting internet lag.. will continue when i have time..

tomolo is fri

tomolo is friday I damn happy.. how should i plan my time with dear?? let say 8.30 reach his hse, after that play with ham ham watchsome show together den abt 1 go out.. go suntec find my stuff walk walk shopping, go carefour eat etc then go watch movie at 6 after eat snack shop and go home?? hai tink tomolo den say best.. hai..

ah ma birthday

ytd was my ah ma birthday.. but we clebrate on sun.. when I reach home saw my cousins all cme over to celebrate.. waa.. gt oreo cake which is i tink chocolate.. gt a lot of good food.. now i at DIY speaker.. our team has the loudest voice.. unknown of the reason why.. even the person also don doe.. maybe is because of the notebook he say.. cause use mine the sound super soft.. haha.. power notebook.. gt some pic of the celebration.. includes my family, and greedy dog.. which is not supposed to eat.. haha.. fri coming looking forward to a happy time with my dear..

1 yr 8 mth

ytd was our 1 yr and 8 mth.. have one of the best and most memorable day of my life.. =).. started first by going to eat pasta at pastamania.. called the wrong pizza.. sian.. taste lik bbq pork.. which is lik char siao bao.. eek.. nt nice.. was wondering wat was the pizza i called tat day with my friends.. ate two bowl of cream of tomato.. feel weird but taste nice.. haha.. after tat went watch movie.. before going out tamp has jennifer body but reach there don hav.. in the end watch paranormal activity.. if it is real story it would be damn scary.. tot it was in the first place.. after dear went home search the net it was actually a fake.. after movie went bugis.. was there cause dear wan maison.. but we were too full.. went walk walk ate mussels and mango strudel tat i bought for him.. went to the library couldnt find any book.. sit at the cinema had a storytelling.. and went kino.. after tat, i found my most fav earring.. haha.. dear bought for mi.. wahaha.. spend a lot of money on tat day.. next time must have some control.. although don feel lik parting but hai.. doe there will be more of these days coming.. today going to work.. so sian.. don feel lik going.. and sales rep haven confirm which place i going.. upload some of the pic. of my earring and christmas tree.


love u and miss u always..

sat's coming

miss my dear dear.. he go in although its not like very long but feel like very very long nv c him le.. however feel quite happy cause sat is coming den cn meet him le.. we going out and its the 1 year and 8 mth anniversary.. where should we celebrate?? haha.. as every second pass feel so excited.. sat's coming.. yay..

punch card

sian la.. laifu say ytd should hand up punch card liao den i nv hand up.. he say daniel call him and scold him say 30 ppl waiting for him for the punch card.. waa.. hui zi told mi tues last day de ma.. ask mi go up on tues.. so today i go up lol.. call her just now she say ok.. hai.. she say today must must must hand in punch card.. sian later must own self go hand punch card liao.. dear still in hospital mum say cnt go cause i sick.. miss my dear so much.. wish he is better now..

sick

today in school damn bored.. topic very easy.. anyway, my cough is not done yet.. later going c doctor.. tomolo going to hand in punch card if cn go hospital c my dear dear..

hai.. today receive a msg that my dear went to hospital.. he has water in his lungs.. has x ray etc.. so ke lian for my dear.. have to stay in hospital.. make mi so worried.. wish my dear will get well very fast.. i so sad.. maybe wont be able to visit him in hospital.. but if i nt going i will call dear whether he alrite a nt..

hai..

hai.. go for so many ce talk and all tat oly gt 13 point. the rest still nt up yet so sian.. so slow.. today is thurs.. the most sian and boring day.. hai.. after scholmum wan take mi eat porridge buffet i tink.. and i am treating her.. wish my stupid pay cme in fast.. should have a lot ba.. cause is take 2 mth whole salary and 1 comm..

schol

so bored now.. tis faci always give mi a b.. sian la.. i wan get a.. aiyo.. saw a ce activity going to pulau tekong den i wan go cause dear is in there.. lucky i don hav ut on tat day.. at most skip class.. although i doe that may not c him la.. but still haha.. go in cn play with the guns and all tat.. should be quite fun.. c where my dear slp and all tat.. today i ate maggie mee.. so long nv eat liao.. nid to eat again..
At home: my ah ma having vegetarian period now.. so i cnt eat meat at home.. sob sob.. wan make sushi for my dear also cnt..
In class: now still presenting hai.. 3.55 le.. making mi feel bored in class.. bored bored bored.. today do html codes.. fri do again with php.. therefore.. one conclusion: DAMN BORED..


Dear in ns de days so boring lol and i miss him!!

my cousin baby video

my cousin baby de video damn cute de.. can press next and see other.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=123964484700#/video/video.php?v=135667604700

some pic of him:

for more pic cn go:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=101167&id=774774700&ref=mf

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=110018&id=774774700&ref=mf

schol

start schol le.. haha.. today woke up oly at 9 which is obviously late.. so i nv go schol.. went to buy charger and get irritated by the stupid computer hp website which ia of no help at all.. den go to plaza sing for my dear hp warranty.. the person if update software den all memory will be erased.. don doe dear cn a nt den nv do.. i now chionging my ce point.. looking forward to the sushi making de.. haha.. that day meryl birthday den went to her hse a while.. saw her gerbils.. tink hamster look cuter.. den went to jurong point instead of vivo.. den joy ate 2 bowl of dessert at a go.. oh my god.. she damn rich lol.. everyday eat dessert la, restaurant la.. very few c her eat kopitiam de.. sat woke up call, tot was supposed to go out of country den call my mum realising i gt the wrong day.. so told my sales rep and went to work.. tis sat den was the date..

reborn

today i so dumb.. wake up so early and tired don doe for wat.. didnt estimated my timing properly keep tinking 12 go out.. hai.. should hav slp more..
ytd go reborn my hair.. forgt tat they gt pray den i buy double cheeseburger which is beef up to her hse.. she does not even doe abt the tradition.. cause she say is her husband pray de.. after tat play two rounds of pool with dear dear den go to the stupid new agency just to sign contract.. some more sign so many don doe for wat..
on tues went out with joy, joce ad yen xi to mind cafe.. it was quite cheap la.. oly 5 dollar from 2 - 6.. den 6 to close ladies nite.. the person very gd give us free flow of drink which is nt supposed to de.. just nice.. haha.. total cause mi 13 cause i eat a main course also.. den we go eat dessert.. i forgt wat is the same of shop le.. i eat cold steam egg with cookies.. nt bad just a little choke cause the cookie is powdery form.. joy call hot de den i tried her.. nicer cause gt more taste and sweeter.. so i bought hot de back for mum.. in the end don doe due to wat reason hers turn out to be very sweet when she eat.. maybe because it cool le.. haha..

pic from swimming..

all these are pic taken after swimming at alvin's hse..