so boring I need a long break

Hai.. everyday need to go work and study.. feel so sian.. so bored and mentally tired.. feel lik taking a long break before work again.. but I wanted to wait 2 more years.. hai.. don doe la.. need saving also.. ytd lunch after class me and dear go bukit timah food center eat.. saw dor and her bf and her bf de fren.. talking abt girlfriends.. the guy fren lik girl lik tat hua chi de.. now de guys now also gossip lik girls.. just nice saw dor i rmb that need to tell dear i going ktv this coming sat.. so i say dear tis sat i go ktv with them (dor and joce).. den he say orh.. den dor also tell his bf.. tis sat i also go ktv with them (me and joce).. both lik doing report lik tat haha.. so funny.. den me and dear keep having debating and arguing.. den dor say ok la ok la.. eat lol don keep arguing.. den at night we went to to-gather cafe to eat.. their food not bad de wor.. maybe someday I will bring joce there all go eat.. and the ponggol tat side de hong kong cafe also..

quarreling

Wed just quarrel with dear dear.. he so stubborn.. wrong already still don admit.. keep denying and insisting I got no prove.. tinking of all his bad habit and attitude makes me wonder if I can still continue to be with him.. so unhygienic.. I already compromise and sacrifice a lot for him lol.. he also nv.. still so self centered.. only tinking abt what benefits him.. what he wants.. sometimes I feel do stuff for him also not worth it.. when he don reciprocate anyway.. give him so many chance le still also like tat.. hai.. ytd he say he will try again.. also don doe real a not.. everytime also mouth talk no action de.. still don see changes I tink jiu suan le.. I don wan to be always tolerating all his bad habit behavior and attitude.. 6 years of complaining and improvement only lik <=5%.. I also don lik to be always complaining.. but I also cnt always compromise and tolerate forever de ma.. he always can do wat he wan.. I jiu cnt do wat I wan.. he say wat also can.. I say jiu cannot.. everytime also need ppl to push him den got a bit action.. so tiring.. everytime also need to say then will do.. and do also 三分钟热度 de..

sabah padi open water dive

Went to sabah 5 days to take the padi open water dive course.. drank a lot of sea water.. the stupid mask in and out de is my nightmare.. cannot slp at night because of it.. total got 5 dives.. saw some nice fishes lik grouper with the black spots.. we have a red big eye fish.. some butterfly fish and one lionfish I tink tat wat it is called.. I almost hit two of them.. my instructor saw and pull me away.. cause tat fish will sting ppl.. got a few jellyfish sting.. well.. it was not as painful as I tot it will be.. I go snorkelling also will get stung a few times by don doe wat.. just tat this stung will be a bit more painful and u will have red swollen spots on the stung area.. will upload some pictures later on.. my big discovery on this dive are stingrays, sea slug, lionfish and turtle etc..  while swimming past the sea slug on the coral.. the sea slug float away haha.. guess the wind of my flippers make them fly.. anyway got a bad wound on the feet ankle too.. due to the flippers rub too much against my skin.. the skin drop off.. I didnt even notice.. just feel a bit pain on and off.. my instructor saw it bleeding and ask me wat happen den I realise the ankle was bleeding.. 3 days of flipper rubbing.. the skin drop out.. den I put some water and waa it hurts a lot.. den I bath all tat also hurts.. hurts like don doe how many times more than the jellyfish stung.. walk now lik yi kuai yi kuai de.. all the skin trying to heal den I walk it will stretch the skin and hurts..

Anyway my instructor is a friendly ang mo.. was a bit shock when I realise he was my instructor cause normally asian and ang mo a bit hard to click de.. but he is the open minded friendly type de so he seems to click very well with the rest.. well the instructor at sabah all very nice and friendly and helpful de.. not lik the stupid phuket ppl.. all so idiot.. oly help americans ppl cause they tink americans are richer.. money face.. sabah de all not like tat de.. all nice.. I learn this course at diverse borneo.. cheaper price nice instructors.. haha.. my instructor shuai shuai.. saw his email dominicbooth83@gmail.com den I realise their surname weird weird de.. diff I guess.. like my colleague surname is peterson.. I tink peterson still common ba.. surname booth first person I know.. one ting bad is on the first dive he drag me into the water straight away after the skills test all tat.. scare the hell out of me.. I was panicking the ear blocking and all tat.. scary for the first time.. I keep tinking I am going to drown.. after a few times it feels ok.. but still scary.. the skills especially the on off mask ting makes me panic.. the first time I did I drank a lot of water.. breath through my nose almost drown.. I am supposed to do in the water.. lucky it wasnt tat deep.. like maybe 2-6m ba.. I swim upwards to the top for air.. while I actually have the respirator.. well not used to breathing through my mouth.. after tat I use the pinch nose method and so much better but still choked on water a few times.. didnt know so much skills need to do for this course... but glad tat I finish it.. nightmare gone.. yay.. dear ask me to go for advance.. I say siao.. I also haven get used to diving yet.. he always 3 min re du de.. after a while jiu forget liao lol..

This sabah trip is for our 6 years anniversary.. so happy 6 years anniversary to us.. did my first time diving.. scary scary diving.. hahaha.. this trip also I pay half for dear birthday.. haha.. dear bought me h2o set.  he say treat as 6 years anni present.. since he say so.. not going to pay him back.. haha.. bought some fresh seafood back.. we have the sea cucumber fresh big big de.. den some fishes.. and big prawns.. the seafood shop uncle say y I everyting also don doe how to cook de.. come on I oly 23 lol.. how would I know I am not a chef.. my mum don cook so many diff type of fishes right.. u say steam I know la.. not lik I know what fish need to cook using what method de ma.. if I so clever I will be chef liao.. not chef tat y ask ma.. we went fish night market there eat.. damn nice.. ate scallop veg and bbq fish oly rm 32.. just the prawn more ex there.. prawns there rm 45.. took a lot of photo with my piano black instant camera.. yay at last got the chance to use it.. last year went phuket forgot to bring cause i rushing to dear hse the nite before.. fabian cnt wait to long to drive me over so I rush and forgot.. this time nv forgot.. yay.. give away a few pieces to other ppl also.. well suan la ba.. I am a generous girl.. haha..

same feeling as this..

正当爱很不容易, 而我遇见了你。很感谢你给我在一
起的勇气。或许爱很不容易才能够痊愈。我却因为你找回了信心。

Tat day one of my colleague ask me if I am affected by my parents divorce.. and I don trust or believe in relationship.. well.. I guess I am sort of affected ba.. I don trust guys tat much.. my colleague say well u still seems to be ok.. at least u still try to go into a relationship.. I tink through her words and realise true.. I am trying.. apart from family background.. apart from past failed relationship.. I am still trying and hoping to find the right one.. which also means i haven give up and because of him.. it is sort of slowly recovering.