Alone time

Now in the mulia hotel enjoying my alone time listening to music. 5 stars hotel with bathtub. The last time i was here i soak everyday and end up with uti. This time need to stop myself from tubbing too long and too frequent. Hai. Looking at the big bathtub so nice so seductive but cannot soak too long. Will be here for 1 week. So while here just try to enjoy the time. No need wash clothes got free laundry. Don need wake up too early for work. Every morning got breakfast to eat.

The only bad thing abt this hotel is the internet super slow. Cannot watch show. Recently watching china show and this actor call chen ruoxuan 辰若轩 so handsome. When he smile so cute. But see him will make me think of someone else. His look is so similar to my secondary school mate. The smile can melt your heart. I wonder how his mother can stand him. Everytime make mistake give sad face everything also can forgive liao. Hahaha. How can someone be so cute. I dont mind having such a cute brother sia.

Last friday got gambro gathering. Anna came to singapore for visit. Meet up with us chit chat and talk abt her australia life. I still considering going australia for my solo trip but still not decided where i should go. Maybe still somewhere with beach still most suitable for me. Had a catch up with them. Everybody is gd and still happy. Had one or 2 cup of alcohol that night too.

I want to retire in a place with a house near the beach. Got beach chair just sit there watch the sea everyday. At night with the sea breeze blowing at you while you view the stars above. This kind of retirement plan seems to be a dream if you are from singapore.

My cousins one by one are getting married and having kids. While for me I still having contradiction whether to have kids a not. Sometimes i feel have kids also gd something to distract u from a boring usual life. Also dear say must have kids then consider a whole family. But the freedom that u need to sacrifice is another thing i not willing to do. Another thing is your finances. Kids need a lot of money which also means you cant enjoy all that you earn.

Next year really need to plan a trip to somewhere. Should i go china go the beach that the cute guy show on the video? Looks like a quiet place. Or go Fiji again since still got so much fijian dollar left? Or go a cheaper option of belitung?

Finally got my key for the house a step closer to my freedom. Can do whatever i like and want to do. Freedom like my butterfly tattoo. Freedom to fly anywhere and away from annoying things i see in my life. Like his stubborn dad. Currently i not staying at his house i will so much better. No dirty shower or clothes or floor. Although my house not very quiet also but at least only got one person nagging but the entire house shouting and talking super loudly.

Today seems to feel my mood lifted. Doesnt seems to be as depressed as ytd. Hopefully this refresh feeling will continue. 😎😉

Next month going jb with dor and joce to celebrate our birthday. Currently don't have much excitement abt my birthday yet. But I am hoping for a super romantic encounter to electrify my restless heart.

Depressed

Recently i have been feeling depressed often. Crying without a reason. Always feel like going somewhere alone or drinking some alcohol. Today i am away alone on a business trip and have been feeling upset for no reason. Tears just drop down when i am on the plane and also when i am alone in the room. It feels like I am missing out on something that I do not know.