kick off meeting malacca

Kick off meeting at malacca.. so shiok.. got rm 100 buck allowance for food and transport.. don need to work can go shopping.. meals provided.. if everytime lik tat jiu hao.. got free meal plus money to spend.. first day reach there so hungry.. not enough time for lunch.. in the end team building tat time ate oly ice cream and goreng pisah tat I found on the way.. den dinner we wanted to eat assam laksa.. but thurs so all close.. we can eat Portuguese food but they don wan.. so we ate hard rock instead.. second day we got meeting.. so boring.. meeting whole day.. sian.. director caught me slping.. but don care.. really very tired leh.. having headache tat day also.. den at nite we went jonker street again.. walk walk shop shop.. introduce my colleague the panty roses.. they bought for their wives.. haha.. third day free and easy.. we went to eat chendol plus the laksa.. shiok.. den shopping buy souvenir buy famous amos cookies plus local products.. went to the mdm goh pineapples tart there.. intro to my colleagues.. the aunty gave me a box of wife bisuits for free.. tink its for my introduction fee.. haha.. well.. my dear hate the uncle.. he say the uncle attitude not gd.. the aunty attitude better.. anyway mui lee nv go cause sick.. I alone one room.. lucky the room is connecting de.. so connecting with kyle and jasmine.. haha.. gd.. they morning call me everyday.. not a bad trip la.. but still prefer if the meeting is only half day..

Anyway day meet my dear.. supposed to study in the end we slp haha.. dear say he love me.. I say I love him too.. he say he love me more I say I love him most.. he say he love me mega most.. lol.. sounds lik the rapunzel movie.. the so call good mother and rapunzel de speech.. haha..

Valentine Day

Today is valentine day.. me and dear de 6th valentine day.. today dear say don doe whether I would like the present he buy.. well.. no matter what present.. is the sincerity that counts.. no matter what present I also will like.. handmake de even priceless cause no body have except me.. haha.. this year I design our own memories together and put on the cups.. have it delivered to dear house without informing him. Dear got a shock.. thought someone give him some black curse cause the cups are black.. so funny.. hu would want to curse my dear dear? The design would only be shown when u pour hot water.. I haven see it yet.. guess tomolo I will be able to see it.. wonder my design on the cup will be nice a not..  today dear give me rose again.. but this time the rose can be with me forever de.. it will not wither.. is a gold rose.. just when I was tinking of asking dear to buy that.. but I didnt cause it is too fragile.. squash it jiu out of shape le.. didnt know that even when I didnt say dear also bought.. really is xin ling xiang tong.. just few days ago.. my rose plant was botak.. no leaves at all.. I ask my mum.. did u water it? She say yes.. I didnt believe her so I water myself.. now it is with lots of leaves.. all new a bit red leaves.. hope it will have roses soon.. haven check yet though today..

My design for the cups.. will compare when I see original



My gold rose

life

不知为了什么我这几天的心情都好低落。好像得忧郁症是的。哈哈开玩笑。今天老师说了大概20分钟才下课。他说每一天都是他的生日。为什么?长话短说就是今天不知道明天会发生什么事所以每天都要过的开心没有遗憾。这个道理我早就领悟到了。你今天活着明天就可能死了。这事领我想到我一直都在想的事。我是一个没有耐心的人。就说成绩吧!我最讨厌就是等成绩。喜欢一考完就知道拿几分。我喜欢早知道答案。我喜欢知道结果。有时我会想。要是今天我死了。我也甘愿因为我觉得已经够了。我有疼我的妈妈。男朋友。和朋友。如果有的选择死或者活着我会选择死。因为我害怕以后的事。人不可能什么都有。爱情亲情友情。我不想有一天我会失望或伤心。尤其是对爱情的事。可能我中毒太深。我妈和身边认识的人的下场让我没有信心。所以为了不收伤害我会选择放弃。我对什么事都开朗也有信心唯独这个没有。我不想有一天伤心和失望。所以选择放弃。要是我还没有死那我就会想要知道。不管开心或不开心的事都不喜欢被隐瞒。真矛盾。又害怕伤心又不喜欢被隐瞒。真的麻烦。到现在我从没有觉得后悔决定和他在一起。因为如今我觉得很开心也幸福。虽然有时还是会因为他而哭。但是多数是开心的。我希望有一天我流眼泪不是因为伤心而是感动或开心。贪心一点。最好开心的眼泪多过伤心的。还有我不想有一天因为生病而痛苦的死。所以我会常常希望像童话的吸血鬼一样不会生病而死。而且童话的爱情故事都是永恒的不会变的。我不喜欢陈经拥有。我喜欢永远拥有。要不就拥有一辈子要不就不要拥有过。

最近常常看天上的星星和月亮。让我想到那时在他婆婆家一起看到的星星。真美丽。真想有许多记得住快乐美丽的回忆。

现在的心情就象是放弃他的心情一样。拿走后心情不好是正常的。现在为什么心情不好就不知道。那天是09-10-2012我还留住卡为了知道日子。所然不后悔但是还是会想起。要是没有拿走应该在一起有半年了吧。

next level

Hai.. I feel that it is getting boring.. studying is boring.. work is boring.. relationship is boring.. Study.. always boring.. hope I can finish my degree with honors.. need more discipline.. need more control.. how the hell am I going to get my degree with honor. Grrrr.. next level.. if I pass.. should I go for a cpa?? Most likely the ans should be a yes.. but probably need some break time first.. we'll see if the time is up as to when will I continue my cpa.. Working.. another boring thing.. im waiting for the new of moving to baxter.. the new experience and event that I look forward to.. although I am happy here.. but its too constant and getting bored.. even though I wanted to stay for few year before proceeding to a next job.. but still hai.. I an aiming for some management job but can I get one is unknown.. currently this change of moving to baxter at least can excite me a little.. since I am doing my work to fast have extra time on my hand which I do not know wat else I can do.. hoping this change of environment can really help to motivate to stay as I wish too.. maybe I am really the type tat can stay in one place for long. . I will get to bored.. Relationship.. constant and stagnant. . Becoming 100% Boring and uninteresting.. I really hope to move to the next level.. don wan to talk abt money and all that nonsense.. not sure if I am too eager to move to the next level to stay together or just he is to uninterested to move the relationship to next level.. I need some new thing to make it exciting. Without money jiu cannot move to next level meh? I have already think of all possible ways but still no actions taken.. how long can this relationship be constant before I burst out of boredom? Wat else can I do to prevent this constant.. we been together for 6 years.. few years of constant is really boring me out.. it just as easy as just move together stay together morning wake up able to see him wake up with a kiss not a msg one.. at nite slp able to get a real kiss too.. how hard is that? Why is there so many issues with that? Going for trip overseas islike the best ting everytime liao.. cause it is the only time that can fulfil what I want.. but is only a short tern ting.. sometimes I really wonder how can a couple been in 8-10years relationship constant.. before moving to next level.. what do they do to make it exciting? I am only in 6 and I am really bursting.. Conclusion.. maybe I just cnt stand being constant doing same stuff without new event.. without new stuff.. for work and for relationship.. I need someting new badly.. new event new memories.. new someting.. whatever that can be exciting..

CNY & valentine day

Its Chinese New Year time.. received hong bao.. This year Hong Bao seems to increase in amount.. Just when i was complaining to Wei Lin about our family de rate always remain the same.. But still overall not much difference though.. this fri going to Ka wei house to celebrate the new year. Hope wont be the same as how it ended last year.. Just a mahjong game.. why are people so sore loser.. this month Feb will be a busy month.. going kick off meeting at malacca.. a bit boring about the place though but going with diff batch of people diff experience.. Why cannot go further place? So stingy.. haha.. Next mon meeting joce they all.. haha.. still hanging out.. 7-8 years of friends.. nice.. rbc say go to her house.. Then will be valentine day liao.. wonder got what plans anot.. how would we be celebrating valentine this year? looking forward.. My family got a few cousin married liao.. give birth le also.. now going to have another baby nephew.. Next year two of my other cousin is getting married.. THis year my company got three getting married.. three hong bao to give.. big bomb.. Exam are coming in May.. this year is last year le.. hope i pass my exam and best with a honor degree.. not sure if i can get a honor.. Jia You ba.. Not sure this year will move location a not.. since we going to baxter side now.. no news.. but bonus will be in apr.. yay.. feeling a bit bored at work le.. nth much changes.. every day do about the same ting.. but i will stay for a few more years.. cause i am happy working here with nice colleagues.. always got free new clothes too..