Elderly prob

Recently keep seeing elderly got harmed etc news.

One of it was the elderly who touched a kid head and was shoved to the ground by the father. 

Many ppl say that the young man make a mistake by shoving an elderly. Well to me let's keep it fair. If it wasnt an elderly. It was another same age man. What result will happen when shoved? 

If is same age man touching a kid of opp gender head, will the result be different? Why is it that when age comes into factor and people think it is alright? Older people means they have privileges? 

Dont they learn that dont touch anything that is not yours. If you want to touch ask permission first. If you anyhow touch then of course the consequences you have to bear yourself fully right. 

Example. You saw a dog looked so cute. You innocently went to touch it. And the dog attacked you. Well maybe you become seriously injured or worse got rabies or died because u are old already lost too much blood etc. Is the dog going to be jailed? Or killed because of you? Will that be fair? Maybe people will say how can you compare a dog with a human? Dog does things instinctively. So what? Human doesnt have instinct? They cant do things instinctly? Reproduction not instinctive? When human met with threaten the body will also react automatically. What makes the difference?

Put it in another perspective, how can you compare a kid with a dog. Stray dog u want anyhow touch fine. U bear consequences. Kid got what difference? Somemore not ur family u anyhow touch u also have to bear the consequences. No difference. 

When one make a mistake, then she/he face the consequences behind it. It doesnt matter when the mistake is big or small whether is the punishment too harsh or too lenient. Is not up to u to judge. Is up to the victim who feel it to judge. He grow until so old, dont tell me he nv get scolded before for touching something that is not his and nv get scolded before for it. If he did? Then why still continue to do the same?

Now another news. An old man hit another old man. The victim's son fight back by pushing the attacker to keep the distance and the result? He was jailed. Why? Because the old man died as he was pushed, fell and hit his head. 

The young man innocently got a criminal record. What kind of justice is this? Who is the real victim in this case? An old man being naughty and a young man because of old man behaviour pinned with a criminal record. 

Is elderly now a protected animal species? Because it feels like they can do whatever they want and once the victim fight back, they are immediately wrong. Shouldnt they be aware of their actions at such an experienced age. They should know better how to behave and live longer. Instead of always triggering for a fight and end up other people have to bear the responsibility for their bad behaviour. 

Solo trip

It has been 3 years since i have a solo trip. Kind of missing the trip. But no money no leave. 

Maybe next year if got excess fund i must plan one solo trip. Let's think about where to go. Someone beach somewhere chill. Somewhere where i can swim quietly when i want and laze on bed. Now redang came into my mind again. Maybe should go back there again. Swim with the sharks. Everyday got buffet food to eat. Dont need think. The more i think the more it sounds like a great idea. 🤔  

What 15 years of relationship meant

I went through 15 years of hurt, emotional exhaustion and disappointment in my previous relationship. We had a child together, and I kept holding on because I hoped that one day my ex would finally understand, finally commit, and finally give me the relationship I had been hoping for.

I kept trying. And trying. And trying.

I'm a very stubborn person. When I believe in something, I tend to put everything I have into it. I don't give up easily. But that stubbornness also caused me a tremendous amount of emotional turmoil because I kept pushing myself long after I was already hurting.

People sometimes ask me why I eventually made what seemed like a sudden decision to divorce. But it wasn't sudden to me. It was 15 years of trying, hoping, enduring and slowly becoming emotionally drained.

Eventually, my body and my mind simply reached a point where they were telling me I had to stop. I realize that I am sacrificing my own health for that. I had to let go because I couldn't keep doing that to myself anymore.

And I made a promise to myself after that: I would never again destroy myself trying to make someone commit to me.

That's why I'm different now. When I enter a relationship, I can give a lot. I can be loyal, committed, patient and willing to work through difficult things. But I also need to see that the person I'm with has that same willingness to step forward and commit.

I don't want to spend another 10 or 15 years trying to convince someone to choose me, trust me, or invest in our relationship. I have already lived through what that does to me.

I've learned the hard way what happens when I keep trying long after something has stopped being healthy for me.

I can give someone an opportunity to show me that they are willing to step forward. I can observe their actions and see whether my feelings change.

But I cannot go back to being the person who keeps trying endlessly while slowly breaking myself in the process.

And I made a promise to myself I wouldn't do that again.