for so long..

been crying for a few hours and at last i manage to calm myself down.. my heart hurts and now my head hurts.. maybe some ppl may tink tat its tiny some matter but to mi it hurts a lot.. as i said.. anyone cn make empty promises anyone cn be untruthful, anyone can say words tat hurt, anyone cn say ting to entertain but the person is definitely nt u.. u r making mi cry so hard.. and making my heart hurt so much.. if u cnt do then don make promises.. when u does and do not do then don hide it.. don wait til i realise.. don give mi black faces when i try to find u.. don try to ask mi go when i have already reach.. i am caring for u and u say i RESTRICTING u tat u CNT BREATHE.. u say u have NO FREEDOM and i am FORCING u.. therefore from now on I have decided.. I am not going to say cannot, no and i don wan to listen to ur promises.. i am going to tink twice abt wat u say and also abt wat i say.. anyting tat u say u r doing i will oly say orh or ok.. i should not be so dumb to tink u really meant wat u say and i now doe that i wont anymore.. unless i doe u really r.. i really don doe wat to say or should i say i really really don doe how to say abt wat u have done.. there is no words to say abt how hurt i am also.. for now.. i feel tat my mind is completely blank and i feel breathless.. some sort of calm and peaceful.. maybe i should slp already.. nite..