relation-tired

relationship really can make u tired.. physically and mentally.. Make u doesnt wan to care more abt anything.. even tired to continue a quarrel or argument.. maybe its the work of being upset.. make mi feel hate.. making my heart not stable.. making mi don doe to hope or not to hope.. make mi wonder over and over again abt it.. make mi wonder how long cn it last.. make mi wonder how long it can stay on.. having to repeat mistakes over and over.. having to getting hurt again and again.. make mi tink wat is the point..
however, the most irritating part is what to do? one side gd one side bad.. gd can be very gd while bad can be untolerable.. seriously, wat can be done? staying on and tolerating hoping that it will soon be over and past and gd days will cme cause we all know fresh in the mind tat the same ting will still repeats.. being awake and keep it shut.. being awake will tell u tis time is gone but when will the next cme? and whether I could still continue when it comes? how long u wan to tolerate.. in future there is still going to be prob much worse than this.. must well give up.. while keeping it shut will say since its so long liao just continue.. u doe tat tis is wat u wanted.. just a little tolerance will do.. tis kind of ting confirm will matter de wat.. without it relationship wont get stronger..
but still y cant it stop repeating? does it really make it stronger.. some how to me i don c it stronger.. maybe it does but i just don c it.. i just c that it makes ppl feel sick, feel irritated and feel much worse hurt than previous when it comes.. every single time it come it adds on and heavier to carry and continue.. there is one way to stop and i hope i don cme to tat way because i don wan to.. so pls.. pls stop pushing.. its already very close.. just a bit more and i feel tat i'm falling apart or maybe i'm already start to fall apart.. so pls.. i'm already pushing it backward to retain.. but y keep pushing forward.. stop pushing forward..