Peace

No cries and no tears anymore

I have already been in peace with the outcome. 

Prepared myself for it for the past few months 

Because I know. Perfunctory dont last. Only sincerity does. Words dont last until actions can prove that it last. Actions works both ways to prove sincerity or insincerity. 

Once Actions prove insincerity first, prove it twice. Only with determination and perseverance can it be stopped the third time to prove as a fact. And when insincerity becomes a fact, trust and faith is broken. Restoring trust and faith is almost impossible. 

Ppl with that kind of determination and perseverance to break the cycle is motivation. I know even for myself I dont have that kind of determination and perseverance. My determination and perseverance worked only when I see consistent and constant sincerity. If I see consistent insincerity, then my decision just becomes more vivid. Words are nth without actions. So actions prove it all. Good or bad. 

Talking and saying is also an action. When words does not equal to actions is perfunctory. Perfunctory is insincere and disrespectful. And perfunctory is a lie as it causes more harm to a relationship than good. It can create false happiness temporarily. In the long run this false happiness will crumble. Because time will prove truth. 

Some things can tolerate then tolerate dont even need to say. As an adult eq is very important. When to say the right thing. It is a knowledge and skill to learn. When you say things at the wrong time, you dont get things you wanted and you cause more hurt, conflict and tension in a relationship. And when consequences comes we cant blame anyone else but ourselves. Words cant be withdrawn and only thing that can be done after hurting someone is to try the best to make amend. 

If a person cant even make amend for his/her own mistake then the person is simply just irresponsible. My goal of keeping myself calm and peace is to stay away from irresponsible person. Who can blame entire world except for themselves.